zati~

ok di sini saya nk nyatakan bbrpe perkara~

first of all, aku sgt terkejut dgn the fact dat ko tgl serumah dgn kucing.

second, aku x sngke korg beli kucing kt sana! tau la mmg kucing bley bli n kucing sgt mahal..but still.....

third, tahniah n syabas coz dpt pegang kucing!hahaha..xdpt byg wehh.sdgkn slame nie ko sgt takut dgn mereka..kan aku da kate..dorg akn pegi kt ko punye coz ko memancarkan aura 'takut' tuu.hahaha.so klu xnk dorg terkam jgn la kluarkn aura tu.haha.lek sudeyy

fourth,YAAAAA AKU SGT JELES!!kucing tu sangat comelllllllllllllllll n sgt putihhhhhhhhhhhhh n sgt gebuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! miow~~

ok nie sume didedikasikan to u zati.haha

tidak ada tempat untuk mengadu selain kepada-Nya..

nightmare

my worst nightmare has come back to haunt me..people say that time heals but does time heals any wound?probably..but i do not believe it entirely..however i am certain that time surely does not help us forget..i certainly don't..and that is why it has come back to haunt me..you can never outrun your past..it will always be inside you..apart of you..and it can determine the picture of your future..i am constantly in fear of what future has for me..whether what i dream of for my future will be there to fill it in..but no matter how many times i dream of my future, my worst nightmare will always be there to darken it..i am afraid..from the time i realise of what my mind is capable of thinking,envision of of the future, i am constantly in fear..not even the love of everyone that i love can wipe off my fear..not even the warmth of knowing the truth of his dark life can get rid of this fear..love is something that i am not capable of grasping..though i know the feeling but not even love can give me the strength to believe in my partner..because i am not certain that he is capable of accepting the fact of my nightmare..that is why i am afraid of the future..if the time comes for me to come clean, i will prepare myself to disappear from his world forever..for i am not willing to hurt him or my loved ones..though i wish that nightmare will perish in the hand of God..for i could only believe in the love that God give me and the strength that He gives me to continue living on this land..if not for Him who diminish those thoughts most of the time throughout my life, i would have died by suicide or living mentally sick somewhere in this sick world..

saya sekarang

setelah beberapa hari hati saya tidak tenang,hari ini hati saya tenang.semalam saya telah membuat satu keputusan untuk mengharap sesuatu yang tidak patut saya harapkan.dan keputusannya mengecewakan.saya telah membuat keputusan bahawa saya tidak akan mengharap lagi seperti semalam.justeru itu, hati saya menjadi tenang.

apabila hati saya telah menjadi tenang,perkara yang saya tidak harapkan untuk berlaku, berlaku pula.namun saya redha dan akan melaluinya dengan tabah.walau apa pun yang terjadi, saya tetap tidak akan putus asa.saya akan terus berusaha untuk merealisasikan apa yang telah saya mulakan.

step by step fizah.there's no need to rush.these things take time.^_^