yekk...

today,i dont know what to do..n i found one of ma mom's malay novels..ok sebab da bosan sgt kan so i think i can pick up the old hobby..bc novel melayu..but...i cant!ayat die terlaluuu JIWANG!n i cant take it anymore..ok dulu boley la..i dont really mind the language tp!! now i dont think i can read anymore novel melayu yang menggunakan ayat yg sebegitu jiwang dan meruntun hati dan perasaan....eeww!!i feel disgusted now to read those kind of lines..rs sgt geli..urghh..why am i becoming like this??hmm..i think its due to some abnormal situation that i had encountered with guys that make me feel this way...i never knew those impacts could be change me so much thou..coz i've never given it much thought..huhu...

a few days back zati post sumthing kat fb on ma wall..its a Q dat she answered..the Q is 'what do u think hafizah needs most?' well sumthing like this la Q die..n zati jwb..guys..........n farisa agreed..errr....but i dont really think so chere amies....i have had enaf to do with guys.....so much tihngs had happen in highschool regarding guys....yea my world evolves around guys.....so dats why i think ive had enaf....well for now...........seems like i always get into heart troubles when im close to one...soooo....i really dont think that what i need most right noow is guys..........u both shud know very well the reason why..........................

new/no-more neighbour

this post is especially dedicated to my new n no-more neighbour..

he had helped me a lot through out this year..he was there most of the time when i needed him..sincerely i depended a lot on him this year..dari dok sebelah yy..i ended up dok sebelah die..wondered what fate had in for me back then..i fought a lot with him awal2..cant really say i can stand him..most of the time i cant..n i ended up crying..really..i lost count already..but im not lying when i said he helped me a lot..he helped me in my studies..he became my partner in class..he make my class life colourful n dark at the same time..he listened to what i say n remembers..that the most important thing..he remembers..sometimes i dont even remember what i said..at times he shocked me..

i have another friend who is like him..though the other person has more heart in his soul..i think..so i developed a way in order to make this kind of friendship remain stable..which is to be open..n just say what's in my mind..no white lies..no hidden agenda..be honest..so throughout this whole year i kept being honest with my new/no-more neighbour..he is an analytical person..most of the time i cant lie to him..especially when im sick(which is a looott)..thats when he treated me extra nice..with chocolate sauce to top it off..when im lost in making decisions,he gave me advice that no one thought he could gave..no one is perfect..that is absolutely true..but he can be a whole lot better person if only he has a heart in him..that is the most important thing that he lacks..through out his whole life..he never had one..i look forward to the day when he does..

one of the things i like bout him is he controls his life 100%..if he say white then its white..if its black then its black..he dont give a damn bout what people say..n he's a loner..very true indeed..a pure loner..no wonder he doesnt hv a heart..but i am quite surprise that i can be an influence in his life..not really sure if i am but due to certain situations i guess i am..kot..and i believe he is also sad to part ways like this..i know he dont have a heart but i kinda feel this way..i dont talk to him anymore..n i dont think i'll ever see him again..yet..but to stop our friendship coz he doesnt want to make me sad anymore?i say that's the most stupidest solution i had ever heard..but being him,this is the kind of way he can ever think of..n would ever do..but for him to think of me,not to make me sad anymore?that is one of the sweet things he did for me..the most i guess..

i gave him a nickname on his birthday..mr house+bean..coz he is as annoying as house n as goofy as bean..i know i will miss him but i think i can live through this..i dont hate him for doing this..n he did keep his promise to give me the surprise..but u failed to make me cry in happiness though..the stimulation is not strong enough..i really appreciate what u did for me..thanks for everything u did..thanks for being my friend..thanks for being by my side when im down..when im at lost..when im sick..when u think for my sake..huuu..there's just too much to say to a friend who is no longer one..i'll try not to think of u too much..coz if i do i cry..but i wont be in the corner hugging my knees like u say..dats just too creepy..last but not least,i sincerely love u as one of my dearest friend..coz like i said to certain someone,ure the first guy to know me so well..well there another one but ure one of them..take care..

ali bin abi talib

semalam aku ngadu im bored..so my dad said..kan ad byk buku tu dlm almari tu..bc la..so aku aku bc one..buku ali bin abi talib by abdul latip talib..n i just finished reading it..i learned some things that i always wanted to know n certain things are made clear..aku slalu tepikir..why is it in all the school books they say that ali xd sumbangan sgt.. i mean he is the khalifah right..n why his sumbangan is only 'terima jwtn khalifah time negara huru-hara'??when i read that book i guess there are too much things that he did during the huru-hara time that just seems too unimportant or too hard to be classified as sumbangan in his era..

i dont know if anyone remember dat khalifah uthman bin uffan was killed by puak penentang..i never knew that the penentang was islam also..n man when they say dat uthman ikut ckp fam die it was true n i just couldnt believe my eyes when i read bout it..but i guess its not my place to say anything in the first place..so lets just keep ma thoughts to maself..n there's saiditina aisyah..why on earth did she enter the perang jamal??a woman in perang..i never could get that around in ma head whe i first learn bout it..well now i know..org islam yg tricked her to get her to basrah..in order to gain the basrahians' support in jatuhkan khalifah ali..their reason is want to tuntut bela for kematian uthman n ali didnt kill his killer..so they got pissed off..i was quite pissed at the people who tricked saiditina aisyah..

i mean saidina ali didnt even want the jwtn in the first place..n he didnt even kill uthman..malah even protect him..n he didnt kill the killer coz he said he was not oblige to kill the killer(not ma place again to say anything)..n dorg tuduh him tlibat dgn pmbunuhan uthman plak..what the fish??n then there's bout zubair b awwam n talhah b abdullah..they are two of the ten people that rasulullah confirm masuk syurga..i mean at last they didnt perang with ali in perang jamal..so why the heck do the tentera in ali's team killed them for???shessshhh..i was so pissed..the one who killed zubair was islam..he took all zubair's belongings nk bg hadiah kt ali..he didnt accept..malah he said whoever killed zubair msk neraka..waaaaa..islam pegi perang suppose to masuk syurga aint they..n he ended up masuk neraka........byk yg aku xpuas hati but i guess this is enough to hilangkan my saket hati..

there's this perbualan in that book..i dont remember who asked saidina ali..he asked the people whoo perang with them are they musyrikin..ali said they are the people who run from musyrik..then are they munafik..ali said munafik is people who menyembunyikan kekufuran dorg..then who are they?well..they are orang islam yang melampaui batas..i guess no matter what happen we just cannot kafirkan orang islam yang lain..n y on earth do i wrote bout these things anyway?spm kan da habis..not like i m going to take course agama lps nie..well i wana ask u one Q(cikgu shabby ALWAYS asked us)..kamu nak A ke nak ilmu?hisyam would say both of course..haha..well life is all bout learning babe..even if spm is over doesnt mean these things arent important ayte?

miss

spm just ended two days ago..and i oredy miss everyone..i miss the ketua kelas n his gentleman manner..i miss panjang with his laughable rambling..i miss jona n his bajetness..i miss farh n her kepohness..i miss cikgu shabby n his eyes n tones..i miss nashh n her tiger rawrr..i miss romeo guy n his 'damn'..i miss syeikh n his weird-using-name-languange..i miss bahriah n his sakainess..i miss adam n his blurness..i miss ku n her 'berpaling muka' attitude..i miss one-ny n her kecohness..i miss awk n his recogniseable laugh..i miss my neighbour n his analytical skills..literally i just miss hanging out with ma frens..waaaaa..

huhu

this is my first posting time exam...
hmm..
i was right all along to HATE PROBABILITY SUPER DUPERLY!!!
spm's add math was the toughest one i had ever take in my entire life so far..
so much for the trial harder than spm crabb..
grrr!

time for bobo~~~

raye3

this raye was kinda boring for me..to be honest i dont feel the semangat raye at all..maybe coz this year im going to sit for spm..i dont know if that has anything to do wif it tho..the second night of raye,my fam planned to go to umbai to hv ikan bakar..but when we stopped by at lubok cina to change our clothes, i saw my nieces STUDYING...and i was going to UMBAI to have IKAN BAKAR...dangg...dugaan btol..this cuti rye i intend to get more serious..by studying..when i was at kampung i didnt study eventho i brought my book..who wants to study when everyone around u wants to raye?(forget bout my nieces,haha) so the first day of rye(ahd) we balik kampung..we return to kl tuesday..otw to kl,we rye at a sedare's house at seremban..balik uma i pengsan..mane x..every day kat kampung i slept in late..

i woke up late..by then only i realise,half of my cuti was gone...i studied now and then...wondering how much worse and boring this situation can be...sincerely i like studying...what i dont like is the exams...and i dont like being pressure...spm is a pressure...thats why i kinda brush it off aside like its not important...how worse can i be?im really wondering if i really am a spm candidate...with an attitude like this...

but anyhow,today my spirit kinda lift A WHOOOOOLLEE LOOOTT...hahaha..i received a postcard from johor is it?spjg mgu aku dok tringat2 mane la postcard nie...kt nk anta tp xsmpai2..xkn la lupe?ke lupe alamat aku?or were u just pulling my leg when u said u want to hntar a postcard?tp xknla...he promised...n die btol2 buat..hahahaha...menjerit aku td dapat postcard tu..tp kuang aja btol...ad ke bg gmba monyet tgh minum air klape???n die kt for some strange reason the postcard reminds him of me...siottt btoll budak tu...n to make thing difficult for me, saje je die tulis dlm code...it consumes a lot of time u know to decode it!!anyhow thnx frhn..=)

ucapan raye for LIG..

SELAMAT HARI RAYA DAN MAAF ZAHIR BATIN..

di sini saya nk buat ucapan raye buat rakan2 yang rapat..dan untuk sape2 yang saye buat salah..kesalahan yang saya tau la..using my blog to say sorry is more convenient than writing cards..hehe..xdmase la nk cari kad n tulis..so im using this free time i hv to write in my blog..let start with her..

YANA

dear yana..haha..awk xnk kite ucap slmt hari rye depan2 kn..takut nanes..well..sy pon xnk..n stakat nie saye berjaye untuk tidak mngalirkan air mate..wahaha..nyway yana..slamt hari raye..sy gne BI ye..sy lg slesa nk minx maaf gne BI..jgn rs nyampah ye..=) naa,im sorry if i have ever make you angry or terase ngan saye..wlupun kite xpena gado..well,who knows what's going on inside your heart n brain ryte?like mun said,tah pe ad dalam otak yana tu..hahaha..i dont if u know,tp saye pena gak a terase ngan awk..ble awk terlalu menaikkan kelas C awk tu..haha..i know u guys hv super duper great frenship among u guys..i do feel envy..n there's this one time when pe yg awk ckp cm overboard sket smpai sy majok ngan awk..ingat x?haha..but u know me..sy xkn ley majok lame2..i forgave u oredy at that time..sy tatau la klu saye d wat salah ngan awk..awk tau la sy nie mlampau sket en..wat salah pun xpasan..well,sy xrase sy d mslh ngan awk..hope u have great raye this year..n dont feel bad bout this saturday k dear..im here for u anytime u need me..for support, for lending my ears, for sharing thoughts o anything there is to do between two great friends..i hope im always the top in ur heart as u are in mine..hahaha..am i selfish to wish for that kind of thing?

ZATI

heyya neighbour..my kawan bermusim..slmt hari raye to you..sory klu aku ad wat salah ngan ko..ko tau aku nie kadang2 selfish n manje cket en..xpasl2 ko kna jd cook xbtauliah..hehe..thnx for everything..yea aku tau ko nie bkn jenis yg feeling2 sgt..tp seriously thnx for everything..maybe sbb ko jiran aku so aku slalu cari ko..thnx for lending your ears time aku sedih..time wan aku xd tu..n dgr aku complain pasl mamat tu..i guess there some things that u know more bout him than others..bese la..time emotional breakdown la i am most vulnerable..but thnx to your sikap ko yg lepak tu so i guess zaman perang kite da berlalu..thnx again..n zati..i know ko jenis yg xluah but if there are times when u need to complain anything aku kn ad..jiran ko je..xjauh mane pon..

FAR

hey babe..slmt hari raye..i guess u know without me telling but still i wana sae it so that things between us are clear as crystal..i'll reply your card here if u dont mind..im sorry if u mind..far..ko tau kn kite byk sgt gado tahun nie..aku bukan nk mengungkit tp klu bole aku xnk ad bnd yg xslesai antare kite..sincerely aku ingtkan lepas kite da talk heart to heart kat padang tu, kite akn ok blik..i thought we can restore our friendship..not just between us but between us KLIG..i know u feel left out sometimes..tatau la klu ko rs cmtu everytime..but sincerely babe,kitorang xpena wat cmtu..i dont know if its ur habit but ko sendiri yg slalu hilang..i guess ure more comfortable wif farah,mynn,eman,nina o me-chan sometimes..i dont mind bout that..coz that's normal..yana ad her cekalians..zati ad wani n hani..aku pun aku rs most of the time wif farhan o anyone from my class..i dont know since when ko rs cmtu..but sometimes its too much..let this be the first time i complain n the last..coz i really love u gurls the most..n i really love our friendship on top of everthing else..yea ure an outspoken person..i oredy knew that for a long time..n i admit certain things said hurt me..tp ko tau la aku..cepat je heal balik..xmcm ko..ure opposite of me..ko xsng heal..worst of all, ko pendam..ko tau la aku nie hot-tempered n my sifat of 'cepat heal' pun ad limit die..im sorry if anything i sae hurt your feelings..but im just being honest..n i think if i wana sae sorry i wana sae it from the bottom of my heart n i want u to know why im angry o hurt o anything..i dont know what will happen in the future, so i dont really want to think too much bout it..but far, please...for the sake of our friendship,jgn simpan dalam hati..eventho the truth hurts,u have to let us know sometimes..ur feelings..kitorang pun ad hati n prsn gak..so kite same2 kna jg hati masing2..one-way of traffic doesnt work u know..im sorry again..far..aku sayang ko sangat2..ko tau kn..so pls..jgn simpan dlm hati..luahkan if u have a prob..im here to hear..im a good listener..tho im not a good at giving advise..tu keje yana..haha..

teka teki

sayang tapi taley cakap sayang..

amik berat tapi tetap xdihargai..

susa hati tapi xdsape nk ringankn beban..

xnk ad kaitan tapi hati da trikat dri dulu xputus2..

heartless

today i recalled si tenggang's homecoming...

coz i hv found myself...back...

haha...

its not that easy to find urself back...

well im a person that is easily influenced...
seriously easy...if u know the way...
influenced o touched o emotional o tension o whatever sort...
especially if i get attached to a person...
so...
that is why i hv made a transformation...
to not get too attached to anyone...
because getting attached to someone is super duper DANGEROUS...
that's why i'm gradually becoming heartless...
to avoid unnecessary occasions from happening...
well...for now la...this year i mean...
tp klu da heartless once susa nk ad heart blik...
yeke?but come on...i m a girl...
i cant be that heartless...
as heartless i wanna be,i am still the EMO type...
=)

i wana hug

heyya toasty...

ive something to tell u...today i hv a small emotional breakdown...

not too serious but it still affects me...i dont really dare to sort this out with anyone...

not that i dont hv friends to support me but...

i just dont know how to spill this thing out...

coz i dont think its appropriate for me to hv this sort of prob rite now...

i mean...ive been thru this b4...n i cn sae im pretty much over it...

but somehow this thing suddenly bugs me at such unappropriate time...

how i wish for this thing to fade away forever!

like rite now...its strangling me...sometimes its hard to breathe...

i mean come on...cant i live peacefully without going thru this stage?

its sooooo hard n sooooo complicated to comprehend!

i wanna a biiiiiiiiiggg and waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrmmmmmmmmmmmmm HUG.......

wic i hope cn make me feel all better n become not-easily-effected again...

i want a hug!!!

can anyone gv me???

CUAXX

arinie second day skola..da dapat lima papers..semalam 4 rini satu..geramnye dgn jwpn physics aku..byk jwpn yg wat aku saket hti ble bc blik.....huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!cuak la sejarah..........................td ckgu bckn markah a few people sume cam pawe2 gilaaaaaaaaaaaaa......ad yg stret dpt 20 20 20 ntuk esei................gile gmpak..................cuaknye cuaknye......................................................................................................sok bm first!!tidakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!takutnye karangannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!!sure kna ngan ckgu..................paper rumusan da la kna marah ngan pn wan................xsukenye..........................TAKOWTTTT...

blik kg

aritu aku blik kg au..aku bwk buku abu ubaidah al jarrah n bio..dri umah smpai kg aku tdo..xlart nk bc bk..smpai kg pn aku cri bntal..then bgn smyg zohor jap..then tdo blik..aku dgr dgn mamai2 mak suh aku goreng aym mas adek..aku 'emm' jela..time tu mk abh alang adik g uma kg cina wic is kg belah mk..yg kg aku tgh tdo tu kg belah abh..uma atok..kitorang blik kg pn coz nk potong lalang yg da bermaharajalela kt kg cina tu..

aku sememangnya xkn wt pape so aku tido ela kt uma atok..ad la gak aku tbgn..aku dgr wan aku kt pasl aku tdo lme sgt kt atok aku..then dgr wan aku msk kt dapo..dlm kul 6 aku bgn la..hahahahahahaha..then smyg..ingt nk goreng aym adek skali wan da msk..fufufufufu...pe nk jd la cucu wan nie..ish3......

then aku dok la dapo..teman wan..dgr wan bercerita...ad sumting yg wan cite wat aku nk nanes..tp naseb aku dapat thn..mule2 atok ckp cmtu..skng wan plak..aku takot.................................aku tamau dorg pegi lg..tlg la jgn pegi lg......kt xley thn.........................

da ingat!!!

hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha..........................................................aku da ingat!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha..........pe yg jd time card sand....ahahahaha...............td aku bukak youtube...nk cek...ahahahahahahahahaha....tp bnd tu xdpt nk upload..soooooooooooo aku pun bukak cd nk tgk en...aku da tauuuuuuu!!!!!sakura n shaoran practise sleeping beauty!!!!!!sakura jd price n shaoran jd princess....................ahahahaha...dorg tgh practise kt compound skola.....time tu sakura nk kiss shaoran...............agagagagagagagagagaga.....shaoran maluuuuuuuuuuuuuu comeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!hahahahaha

pening2

rini aku rs xsdp badan..i dnt knw why..dari tusyn td aku da rs xsdp bdn da..then xpasl2 time nk bukak pose aku rs pening au..rs nk pitam..time tgh tuang air aa..pergh..berpinar2...ble nk mkn kurma pun rs nk muntah..nk kua isi perot..sedangkan cam ad je isi dlm perot tu au..hahaha..nyway arini arifah datang..weeeeeeeeeeee~ n kami maen kejar2..hahahaha..sy mengejar..die dikejar...klaka tgk die lari...dalam xstabil tu..hahaha..pengarang jantung hati..hahaha..d only one i call sayang seikhlasnye..for now..ngee~

mixx

smlm g tarawih..ad ustaz indon yg bg tazkirah..aku cm da dpt agk da coz cra die ckp cm indon en..cume telo indon die tu xtrok ne..msti da lme kt mlaysia..smlm first time a tazkirah lwk cmtu..haha..da la die dtg lmbt..bg tazkirah smpai kul 10 au..tarawih da la xwat lg au..aku cm dpt agk blik msti dkt kul 11 aa..yg taley blah nye,owg yg bc zikir ke selawat b4 start every tarawih tu..bapaaaaakkkk laju die bc..yg aku phm n dgr hanya 'muhammad'..taley blah gile laju..da la first tarawih xd doa..ble scnd tarawih doa pun kibut gile..punye aku dok nk phm..tgk2 da amin..seriously dgr die mumbling...

haha..smlm ad owg tu grumbling ow..cute gilaaa..hahahaha..cm kanak2 xdpt gule2..miahaha..sape la tu ekk..

nyhow..smlm aku cam muhasabah diri cket..n from wat i realize..the older i get the badder i am..haha..there's no such word as badder but i'm sure u get the meaning..the worser i get..heh..wat shud i do?if im getting worse there's only me to blame..n i dnt deserve anyone..well..that's wat i think..sincerely..im not who i am as i am now..haha..sape phm?the complicated the sentence the truthful i get..dangg....no one knows who u really r..

afte trial

huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~ da bzaman x update blog...........haha.sy ad trial la xd ms nk update blog..hahaha..sedangkan ad je ms nk bc manga oneline en..sedangkan ad je ms nk tgk one piece en..alasan je xd ms nk update blog..sedangkan ad je ms wat bnde len..sakai ow...ehehe..anyway trial ad ok ad xok but lets us put dat aside shall we..sy da tamau pikir da..huaaaaa.....sy?am i really using sy?ok aku aa..tp ble reflect balik...my exam weeks neva fail to start with a problem going on..sume start dri f3..seriously...neva fails...mgu trial aku bmula ngan mslh gk..tp da ingt pe..hahaha...wats past is past..yea..n sumone just blew up afte tuition today..i got kinda all worked up but wats past is past..no use tinking bout it nymo..n a certain person just said dat he will keep asking me d BIG QUESTION until i sae yes......hahaha..lets see how long u'll last boyya..

at msu

23 julai 2009..

maths quiz in msu..

a lot had happen..

harinie

harinie aku moody.haha.

mule2 ad owg tipu aku.tp skng da xkesa.

wateva hapens, hapens..

i cant change nyting ayte?

lgpun aku dibuli pd thp karma yg mlampau.

klu aku pnyabar tape gk.

malangnye x..

fufufu..

n aku xphm..

np evry yer msti ad owg nk cri pasl ngan aku ni?

evry yer ad je dak y d mslh ngn aku..

klu xtimbul name aku n dikaitkn ngn mslh xsah..

y plg xthn ad pengajar yg salh phm..

tp sykur sgt2 ad yg percaye kt aku..

trime kaseh!

saye xkn khianati keprcyaan tu..insyaAllah..

o yea..

harinie gk sy mempamerkan prsn y da lme sy pendam..

thdp seorg sahabt..

skng ske men ckp lps..

b4 nie pon ad tp mls nk tunjuk..

tp da byk kali..

bnde tu kumpul2 jd byk..

tu yg xthn td..

pndai ey awk skng..

sy majok tol2 karang..

tp coz mls nk pjg2 cite..

bout 10 minit majok da ckp blik..

=p

hate n despise

today started badly...

so all the rest of the day was also bad...

today im super emo...again...

i was bullied countless times...

by people who just LOVED to tease other people...

n LOVED to see other people sufferrr...

well the other people seems to be me...for today...

damn it...

i DESPISE them...

i HATE them for doing this to me...

i guess they just LOVED to test my patience limit...

making me angry...

soothe me...

then make me angry...

then soothe me...

then make me angry again...

n this goes on and on and on until i exploded...

seems like i'm their source of fun n excitement n enthusiasm eh?

HATEFUL BASTARDS...

seeing me emo n making me snapped is sooooo fun is it?

grrr!nymph sy!

walalala

harinie aku g mkn kt pusat komuniti tu.hehehe.pagi2 da jmp abg ncem.bong la fizaaaaa.haha.ey2.ingt x dak yg nk knl ngan aku tu?smlm die kol.hahaha.aku da la kepenatan yaaaa amatt!aku da guling2 ats katil nk tdo.mte aku sangat2 pedih.overly used.tmbh ngan pkai specs.perghhh.nyway aku angkt jela.n kitorang borak3.n for the first time aku gne 'i u' dalam bm!!!!like ewwwwww!hahahahahahahahahahaha.bile aku pk balik cam xcaye je aku gne 'i u'............cam bong gilaaaaaa.geli aku do....hahaha.tp time gne tu xdpn rs pape.cume bile pikir balik rs cam waaaaaa~ aku pkai 'i u'.......klu in bi len cite a.xkn ckp bi nk gne aku ko lak en..tp ni gne bm weyyyyy..sungguhhhh bkn gaya aku..........yucks..tp yg ajaibnye kitorang ley borak cam not the first time borak...hmm dats gud,i guess?haha.maybe coz die jnis yg byk ckp so dats y d conversation was not so pelik like the awkward situation when u try to start a conversation wif a new fren u just made.al in al,it was ok.

n sory khushairi coz emo time bls ur msg.i was extremelyy tired n exhausted n drained that i was trying so hard to even keep ma eyes open n bls ur msg.pls dnt take it to heart.yesterday was rather a veeeeeeryyyyyy loooooooooonggg n tiriiiiiiing day for me.hope u understand.

n i dont know how to read that map..............i cant interprete it................so many alien wordsssssss..............................i dont evn know where the borders are...................................

pnt

huaaaaaaaa~ da lme aku xpost...sangat penaaatt dgn klas chem yg blambaaakk.terlalu byk chemical dlm pale otak aku...im mentally tired...today aku d klas chem 4 hours...d rehat 20 minits.but stil....then d bio lak 2 hours...mate aku sampai da saket da ow....aku da jd pandaaaa...ma eyes r baggy.......btol ke ayt nie?cepat tol ms blalu...huaaaaa~ nantokk oww~

blaja3

semalam aku blaja sejarah weyyyyy~ sampai search tenet auu.haaa.betapa bersungguh-sungguh nya aku nk blaja sejarah semalam.hahaha.aku blaja chpter 9 form 5 n chpter dark age n renaissance tuh.sehari suntuk aku ngadap laptop.pe yg bes nye blaja dri tenet is bile aku da bosan bc sj tuh aku bc manga~~ agagagagagagagaga.ma dad n alang pon tolong aku blaja sj.so its kinda fun actually n mind opening.if d minat is there then everything cud be done.weeeeeee~ xpena2 aku blaja sj titibe blaja kdg2 quite fun u know.hahaha.

pemgumuman~

saya, nur hafizah bt mohd zin dan muhd shazwan b muhd jamal da baek..weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~

pnaatt

first of al i wana sae..TAEKWANDO XGUNAAA!!!!! sekor makhluk pon xdtg en.da dtg titibe lesapp lak en..ketua pon xgune..myirapp aku..kasi silat wat sendiri.da la silat yg stg bape kerat je..seyesss myirapp!penatt!aku n zati smpat race g buang sampah.berat doo!aku tatau cane yna n far ley rilekkk je nk angkat sebelah tgn sorg.perghhh.da la berair plastik sampah tuhh!ewwww!basah baju aku!!!tp aku paling tabik zati aaaa.ad bakat jd cleaner!hahaha.lpas nie kita bukak KLIG Enterprise.wat moneyyy~ bling2!hahahaha.

blik kul 12.smpai uma dlm 12.40 cmtu.bdn penat2 lg nk siap2 nk mkn lg.then g tusyn kul 1.30.aku n far join klas f4.smpai la kul 5.ya Rabbi..penaaatt..nantokk oww.xku sangke lak dak2 f4 klas sir tuh kecohh gilaa n annoying..aku penat sgt smpai tatau nk kt pe..da la nyirapp xbis lg..dak silat pon xdtg tlg..ok mayb d yg wat bnd len..tp geram..suhaila pn baik hati meng'offer' help..thnx su..

n jantan2 tu pon ley gak nk besidai kat klas aku..mrosakkan pndgn menyakitkan mate menyesakkan nafas!pergh..kombinasi terhebat..yg menyebabkan ke'nyirap'an berlaku..skng sng sgt aku nyirap ble tgk die..np ek?taley la xnyirap..aku rs my oversensitiveness is switch on evrytime i c him..sgt2 nyirapp..

n u know wat makes me happy?bnde nie..hahaha..thnx a lot..yea i like it..n il keep it of coz..terharu x?n sakura n syaoran super duper cute this time!ngee~ but its two different bears..totally..obviously..n of course there's no yet..=pp

knl2?heh

pe nk tulis ek?em2.haa..sy ad satu cite..sy rs sgt pelik senanye..tp2.pape jela en..cite die ceni..smlm ad sowg mmba lme sy anta msg..it goes like dis..

him:smekom..
me:wslm
him:kwn ak de nk bknln ngan ko..
me:ko wat lawak ke?
him:x.. ni btol nie.. ak bwk mjlh sab g skewl ak..
me:np nk knl aku lak?rmai lg owg len.fatin azizah kn ad
him:die tu da hot sgt kt skwel ak.. lgpn die tu pndk..ko tggi..mmba aku 2 pn tggi gk..
me:haha.ure insulting her u knw.aku xmint la nk relationship ni.nk kwn bley la.i dont do mushy relationship
him:ak bkn ejk die..mmg btol..mmba ak tu nk make fwen je..
me:i dont mind making new frens
him:k ak bg no die..
me:haa.ko bg.aku simpan buat pekasam
him:pela ko..owg nk bkwn ko jual mhl..
me:haha.aku bkn jnis y stat msg la.bese owg yg stat dlu.klu die msg aku bls la.simple
him:ceh..mhl la tu..ka3
me:wateva.dats just me

so.dats dat.tp yg aku plek die bwk mags time f2 au..aku tatau nk ckp da kesakaian thp gaban ne da..tp ley d owg nk knl2..adoyaiii..lwk lak aku rs..i seriously dont understand guys..like dey sae bkwn bia seribu bkaseh bia satu.HEKK!mushyly crap thing.just when u sae ive nothing to see aye?life's realy weird.

hek

damn.love is seriously a total crap.for now.n having relationship wif opposite sex is so messy.too many probs n what not.trust blindly?hah.guys are so no to be trusted.even if u sae u love him.seeing only him in your eyes is total crap.totally mushy n distracting.n soo much more crap.

me.

so what if im childish?idontgivadamn what anyone else sae..im grumpy+emo+heartless?so what?im me..thats all dat matters.so what if i cant kip ma anger o mood to maself if there's anything o anyone bugs da hell out of me..one thing bout me that i learned this year is dat i realy show ma emotion if i dont like dat particular person..i dont realise this on ma own..people around me sae it..n i guess its true..when i remembered back what happened..

ma point is..im happy wif maself..wlupon jd bnde2 yg aku xharp jd..like dat particular secret yg sumone shudnt know knew..n when a certain person taley trime kenyataan n nk gak cri gado ngn aku..o i showed emotions that i shudnt to certain people..

i show ma emotions.i get angry easily.but i dont hold grudge against people.even if they did their worst to me.i stil forgive them.eventually.xcept one.one n one only.that i wil neva eva hv d heart even to forgive.dat person xlayak pon ntuk di forgive.i neva forgive.neva had.n neva wil.not in a million years.not for eternity.not even if i die.not even if d world ends.shit.i hate to remember.wel wateva.have fun reading.

layout baruuu~

hahahahaha..hoorayy!im glad u like it..this layouot i mean..hahahaha coz i like it too!n i wana clarify sumthing mr farhan..i did not write i watch that STUPID blue dragon..aku tulis yg aku tnggu nk tgk cite pe yg kua but i did not wait n watch it..lagu katun bodo tu pon da bg cukop info of what its all about..i did not watch it..n i dont giv a damn that u agree with guess..whoever that is..coz im not whatever u both think.=ppppppp

stupid cartoons..

u know what..this morning when i had ma breakfast while watching the tv,there was this cartoon..titled blue dragon..i waited..to see what's the cartoon is all about..n u know what i find out?that cartoon is soooooooo like dragon ball..the stupid blue dragon..the fake goku..the hoovering land where the small namek n like-org-itam(cant rememba their names) lived..then there's the fake bulma..n i think the fake no 18 too..what the hell is going on with the cartoons these days nyway?cartoons nowadays are sooooooooooooooooooo lame..it seems like they are out of ideas to create new n quality cartoons..i just hate new cartoons on tv nowadays..sooo lame sooo boring sooo stupid n whatever more i dont know..

asshole..

i just dont get it..i dont even understand why i cant accept it..of all the topics in addmaths,the most top two that i cant handle is indices n proBABIlity..maybe to some people those topics are easy but certainly not to me..eventho most people said they're simple but i just cant accept the simple logic of those topics..their simple logic seems illogical to me..n i dont know why..

n some time during tuition,some people just dont seem to understand that not all people like them..obviously im talking about azfar..who else il be talking about when i talk bout someone irritating at tuition..why dont he just understand the fact that he always irritate me n sae things bout me really does bugs me..n im sure he's intelligent enough to know that i knew what he said bout me..he cant be that stupid..considering he can answer Qs that most people cant..i admit that he's intelligent..but he's so damn annoying..so when he called my name just now,does he really expect me to respond?da hell no..why should i talk to you?there's no reason for me to talk to you coz all u do is geeting on ma nerve..eventually after that i knew that the reason he called me was to give yana's eraser..being the asshole he is,he talked bad bout me with zahid..he sat behind me..n obviously he said those things for me to hear..for goodness sake's why cant you just disappear?why must you came back n take tuition from universal?n why must you get on ma nerve you jerk asshole?its like encountering another chris..one of these days i will surely explode..

lalalalala~

wey rakan2!!!harinie keajaiban berlaku!!!aku dpt A ntuk bm..........wahahahahahahahahahahahaha.bapakkk xcaye weyyyy....maybe korg ingt aku nk berbangge diri but....if u know my teacher....how hard it is for us to get even ONE MARK...n how strict she marked our papers...perghhhh!xpena aku rs bm sesusa ni!n xpena aku rs how i HATE bm now....i like bi more....hahahahaha...n u know what?my bi is higher than bm!waaaaaaaaa!how can dat be??!!!ironicc....tp A bm aku cukop2 mkn je...xla pawe cam owg len ennnn....


o yea!harinie bday farrrrrisaaaaa~ hahahaha...i kinda predict that u dnt wear dat thingy darling but...its cute...thats y i bought it...hahahaha..hepy bufday galfwen..i luff u more than u luff me!(rs cam dejavu x far?haha) n syukur la dorg da bekk...hahaha..aku tatau la da bp lme dorg pendam prsn nk kongsi citer pasl one tree hill tuhh...hahahahaha..da bzmn xckp la ktkan..skali becite blik berjela2 story kuaa..


n i wana warn u ahmad khushairi bin mohd zahari...if u spread that damn crap thing again i'll chop2 ur head...i dont need ur help to make it worse...

heeee~

wahahahahahaha



aku da buat da~

wahahaha

wahahahaha..harinie aku wat survey..survey baek punyaa..hahha..frhn kt skng die tgh tgk cite card captor sakura au..then i think...farhan?tgk ccs?huaaa...so die cite pasl taekwando die dulu ari ahd so die dpt tgk ccs ari sabtu..n ok i tot...this is getting weirder...darjah 4 die tgk ccs??klu aku yg tgk tapela gak..dapat diterima oleh akal aku...tp ni frhn??a guy?watching sakura??time die drjh 4??klu die kt die tgk digimon ke pokemon ke tape gak..ley aku trime ow...i just cant accept the fact that a guy watch sakura!!hahahah..sooooo aku wat survey...a survey that will determine his manliness!!!hahahahahaha..bapak excited gilaaa aku cari mangsa ntuk di interview...n u know wat??i won!!!muahahahahaha...so farhan...ure not a man!hahahaha...well...immatured as u say...


tapi kan yang aku peliknye...dak laki yg tgk ccs sumenye aku xsngka dooo...meh aku gtau meh..hahahaha...hisyam yaya fahmy iylia udin amin krishna amirul n adam...

hahaha..kuang aja gila aku nk bold n besakn..tape laaa..aku xnk bg sala info...hahahahah..yg aku taley blah tu en iylia n amin sempat cite lg pasl ccs...aku glak xingt dunie da...adoyaiiii...i won by 6 person btw...ngeh3....


ni lg satu aku xthn...hahahaha...zati nk speaking ngan kitorang...nk improve english die...tp yela..bru first en..xpena2 nk speaking ntra kitorang ttbe nk speaking en...ntra die n yna a paling byk...hahahaha..aku rs da mcm itik nk ckp ngan lembu da...punye zati nk susun ayt...tape2...chayo2!kip it up!next time im sure ull get better zati kay...ngee~

damit...

damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit damit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hv been having it a lot recently...damit...this wil neva do...saketnye hatiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!shit la...arghhhh!i dont want to feel this!!!!!!!damit...im so stres up over these things easily...this wil neva do...bencinye...tasukenye!!!!!


actually i wana post a story bout zati...td abah suh aku mik adik kat flat...tp skng flat seems soo scary to me...aku xbanie nk g sorg2!so aku ajak zati...hahahahaha(gelak xiklas) die gayat gilaa...rumah penjaga adik aku tu da la kat tingkat 16..second last floor...hahahahaha(more unsincere laugh)..klaka gila tgk die..


o yea farhan...aku d dgr cite pasl kawen ari sabtu nie?ko n aku?tu cite lwk antrabngsa ne pon aku tatau la...klu aku dpt tau ko yg wat cite tu siap sedia pencil box ko...bile aku rs nk lpas geram aku akn baling pencil box ko kat ko...im sure ko xsabar kn?n gud luck in sebarkan fitnah paling besa ko tu...ko taley kna cabar kn?so gud luck...aku nk tgk bp rmai org ngok cam chris yg caye ngan cite pedon ko tu...i hope ure having a whole lot of fun in the process...tp dlm process tu pon siap sdie kn jela pencil box ko o hisyam ntuk aku yea...it'll be fun kn?

hahahahahahahaha

harinie aku breakfast nasi lauk kari ketam n sup ayam..berat sangat ke?aku lapa do..lagipon ketam tu memanggil2 aku..msti la kau sahut panggilan die..hahaha..angah aku wat mke xcaye ble die bru pasan aku mkn pe..hahah..bukan aku mkn bnde pelik pon do..

n harinie satu keajaiban berlaku..adik aku..die..sidai baju!susa nk caye tp pecaye la..adik aku yg cengeng tu sidai baju..wlupon mrungut2..haha..aku d mik gmba..sbgai bhn bukti..klu kau rajen n ingt t aku tunjuk..haha..

satu lg yg aku xthn rinie..sir bio aku..sir alvin..harinie die terlampau aktif!die bajet cute over gila..n kuniiiiingg!waaaaaa!fikiran aku tercemar!aku xphm do...asl sejak akhir2 nie rmai sgt nk lucah ow..hishh..

kisah ini bermula 11340 saat yg lalu...harinie kitorang blaja endocrine system..aku,far,fahmi n bbrp lg xdtg due mgu lpas..so kitorang xd notes ntuk topic nie..then ttbe..'hish!skrg sy kna pegi fotostat..haisyo!'cara die cakap taley blahh gilaaa..ke'cute'an memancar2!tu yg aku xthn tu..aku cam ek eleyyyy sirrr..its just a few steps away..nk bajet2 cute plak ttbe rini..hahaha..sakai je do..then blaja pasl hypothalamus n pituitary gland..d satu hormone called oxytocin..die kt oxytocin d dlm male n female..dalam male function die ejection of sperm..die translate dlm bm..pancutan sperma au..hahahahaha..bangang ow..tp yg lg ngok ble msk female nye..kat female function die stimulate strong contraction of uterus n hahahaha ejection of milk..ble die translate dlm bm..pancutan susu..weyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy..hahahahahaha..bengongg gilaaa..kitorang gelak cm xingt dunie da ow..nak2 laki2..

haha..k skng kita masuk part two..as time flies kitorang blaja pasl hormone yg ovaries produce lak..oestrogen produced by follicle cells..function die stimulate the development of secondary characteristics in female n stimulate thickening of endometrium wall wif blood vessels..the second hormone is progesterone wic produced by carpus luteum..function die maintain the endometrium wall wif blood vessels..so die suh kitorang connectkan hormones yg diproduced by anterior lobe of pituitary gland..die wat cite pasl woman la..the first day of menstrual cycle..pituitary gland will produce FSH(follicle-stimulating hormone)..hormone ni akan stimulate follicle cells ntuk divide divide divide n divide..ble dorg da mature dorg akan produce oestrogen..oestrogen akan carry out its function..so time nie woman's uterus will start thickening..then,pituitary gland akan produce LH(luteinising hormone) yg akan stimulate ovulation..time nie ovum akan kua dari ovary n this day n woman's hari subur?haha..the follicle cells yg tgl wil turn to carpus luteum n produce progesterone..so bak kt sir..if d woman do d aha-aha..sperm wil fuse wif ovum n form zygote..time nie la progesterone take part..so dat zygote can be implanted into the walls of the uterus n live on..tp..like sir said..if the woman xwat aha-aha..the ovum wil die afte 36 hours(xingt sgt) n progesterone xd function da..so this is d day woman menstruate..perghhh!harinie sape yg bc tol2 blaja bio do..hahaha..one of the way for me to remembaa..hahaha..bngang je..dak2 akaun yg xphm tu naseb la..so this is wat sir said lpas die mbebel..'tgk betape susa nye pompuan..have to go tru this la..then have to pregnant la..give birth la..dats y u guys next time hv to syg ur wifes..kamu laki2 tau buat apa saje..tau ejaculate je!'hahahahahahaha..bapakkk ngok ngek!seyes kitorang gelak cam bom mletopp..hahaha..saket prot aku rinie doo..sirr aaa..u also a guy u know..hahahaha..so i guess dats the only thing guys know..ejaculate..hahahahahahahahaha..bongok ow..

ni part three..hahaha..td sir wat peta minda ntuk kitorang..bg sng ingt..d satu hormone ni..prolactin ntuk stimulate milk production..then die lukis sumthing..the thing dat produces milk..aku cam....................................doo!sirrr!y today ur so yellowish-blue!da la lukis milk to kua weyyyy!sakaiii....

hahaha..nyway..rinie due2 aku jumpe..pembakar semangat bio n pembakar semangat fizik!ngeh3..rinie sir cheng xi pon ad..haha..far nk minx autograph die ntuk bk whizz tu..so aku ckp a kat die..sir ad peminat nk minx autograph sir..hahahaha..sir sign la..die tulis farisa all the best..hahaha..tulis pelan2 gilaa..aku ty aa is dat ur best tulisan sir?hahaha..coz dlm klas die tulis cincai je..yg aku xthn tu sir alvin jeles kitorang minx sign sir cheng xi!agagagagaga..mke die bapak taley blahh..die kt 'huhh!talk to the hand!'hahahahaha..sir i dont want to talk to ur hand laa..nk jeles2 lak..if u write ur own book pon i wil ask for ur autograph..hahaha..klaka tol..

harap2 harinie ad owg yg menimba ilmu yek..ngee~ =))

geram..

boleh aku tau nape hari nie aku rs saket hati?ad owg tau sbb die?huaaa...nyampah aku do...lalalalala~ weyyy!rini bday angah aku...aku tau xd kna mgena ngan korg..tp ske ati aku la nk gtau ke x..ske ati korg la nk bc ke x..aku peduli pe..

so2..kitorang g mkn kat restoran kapal kat kampung baru..tmpt tu famous ngan steak..msti d dri korg pena g pnye..cm agk famous tmpat tu..agk nye la..g mkn lmbt cket coz aku d tusyn..xkn nk tglkan aku en..da la bday adik aku mkn dulu xtnggu aku bis tusyn..nyway..epy bufday angah!i lep u bery much lah!n kakngah n kaisara.kite nk jmpe kaisara!bawak kaisara balik kl cepat2!kite d tusyn ne ley g klntn..huhuhu..walaupon xd kaitan tp2 aku nk tulis gak pasl kaisara!=p

and2 arinie hari bersejarah gak coz nurul arifah liyana da boleh didukung oleh pakngah n atok nye tnpe menanges!wohoo!sian atok n wan arifah..evrytime dorg dtg dekat je arifah nanes..same la ngan pakngah die..tp rinie nk lak die..da ok..maybe die tau sok die da nk balik johor dats y die jd baek..haha xd kaitan..dgn makteh paklang n paksu je die cepat mesra kn arifah kn?haha..makteh die hulur tgn je die sambut..ngeh3~ bangga xpepasal ow..bia a..bukan slalu..=pp nyway asal aku kerek sangat mlm nie?maybe sbb geram aku xhabis lg kot?geram?nape geram ek?haa..lu pikir la sdri..

lagi2!aku xbis lagi nie..mlm nie kitorang satu fam da merumuskan bahawa arifah sedikit brlainan dari baby bese..phal aku wat ayt cam nk wat conclusion je?nyway..besenye kite dgr owg slalu ad bantal bucuk en..ey aku xpeduli klu ko xd..aku cakap biasanye..kanak2 en..normal la..sape xd tu..kesa plak aku?tapi2..pe yg len kat arifah nie..die bukan bantal bucuk..tp baju bucuk..'hua?baju bucuk?', manusia yg mbaca tertanye2..ko xtertanye2 DIAMM..tu baju kaklong..cite die ceni..arifah tgl ngan atok n nenek die kt johor ms mak die belajar kt maktab..d satu time tu,arifah nanes3 xbenti..so nenek johor bg baju lame mak die kt arifah..diam plak die..ad bau mak die kot..tu yg senyap tu..rindu ngan mak die..so smpai skng la tradisi tu mlekat..tradisi?pekebende tradisi nye do?aku pon tatau..so smpai skng arifah tido ngan baju mak die..td nk kua mkn pon bwk baju bucuk die..tp2 tgl dlm keta je a..

hey..kesaketan hati saye da bekurangan..mungkin kegembiraan bersama kluarga n ketawa td dah berjaya mengurangkan kadar kesakitan tersebut..n the award goes to nurul arifah liyana!penyeri kehidupan pembawa kegembiraan..haha..arifah jgn la balik lagi!waaaaaa!nty makteh rinduuu!tere lovus muchos arifah dear!

sire

wahahaha..aku nk cite pendek je..kite tros ke climax..time tu tgh rehat..aku n yna nek ats..yna nk byr sumting..d la betukar buku whizz..then yna ty aku..ingt lg x bunge silat pekebende..aku kt xingt..tp klu wat nty maybe aku ingt la..haha..cm da bzmn je kot..then2..yna cam nk kerek2 ngan aku..die kt aku ingt pon ble wat sebelah die en..eleyy..pawe aa tuu enn..ckp sy xingt pelebat gak ennn...eleyyyy..then turn yna byr..die cam kat dlm ofis..aku geram yna ckp cmtu so aku wat2 la tembak yna kt pale..agagagagaga..blom pape da xcited xpepasl..kk..time aku tembak yna die dlm ofis..tmpt byr tu cam didindingi oleh cermin can look-thru je au..die d kt dalam n saw what i did..hahahahaha..n die sengihhhh n geleng pale..agagagagagagagagaga..kiutos mundos!perfecto similos!ehem2..berita skng myiarkan pencairan di kutub utara n selatan berlaku serentak n bumi kini di tahap kritikal..banjir besar akan berlaku kurang dri 5 saat..sekian laporan berita dari fizun news..hahahahahaha..cam bangang je..

haha..ynaa~ sy da wat pe yg sy cakap..first time sy post pasl die au..sy xsegila awk..agagagaga..

khushairi

AHMAD KHUSHAIRI BIN MOHAMAD ZAHARI...

DONT USE DAT SANGAT2 WORD AGAIN...

ITS STARTING TO GET

EXTREMELY ANNOYING...

N DONT MUMBLE TO ME...

U'VE GROWN BIG ENAF TO BE ABLE TO

SPEAK PROPERLY...

N U CAN TERGURIS ALL U WANT...=P

IDC...

U NEVA CARE FOR MY TERGURIS B4...

ayakk

yesterday evening me bro n i kua ngan sedara kitorang..kakngah ajk g ts tgk wayg..mle2 tu ingtkn ayin ikut kitorang..skali aku g ngan alang je..kakyong jd g lak..so2..kitorang g la nek keta angah..tah pe alang kt g ngan kakyong tp memandangkan time aku kol dorg da smpai sane kitorang kna g sdri a..odw to kakngah kol kt tgk night at d museum 2..so ok la fine..cite tu pon cam bes..skali smpai2 weyhh tiket xd..tau kitorang tgk citer pe??hannah montana..........doo..cite tu pon aku xpena tgk kt tb xpasal2 tgk movie die pe cer??mylie tu pon aku xgemar sgt..adoyaiiiii..tp tapela bntai jela tgk..overall bes gk citer tu..lgu die sdp2..country song..n lwk gk aa..so al in al, ok laa..tpkan tpkan!nk dibuat citer time dlm wayg tuh angah kol........jeng3!aku da gtau abh da nk g..abh ok je kot..so phal lak nie dooo..rupenye angah nk gne keta...huaaaa...kunci uma die d dlm keta...aleyyy..np xbwk skali angah?hailaaa..then....owg yg x dinanti2 kol...huhuhu..saya punya mak kol..huaaaaa...kna marah....yelaaaaa..sory aa..ne tau angah xbwk kunci uma die sdri n tglkan dalam keta die kt kl ni...=ppp hahaha..da pulak tu aku je yg kna marah!!kuang asam tol alang..die bukan nk angkat kol..saje bia enn..heeeee!!alaa tp rilek2 sudaa...haha rilek xrilek mmg kitorang pecut blik lps bis wayg...agagaga..tp blik xkna mara ponn..muahahaha..nyway thnx blnje mkn n wyg!len kli kua ajak lg ek.haha

aku..malas tol nk cari gado..well..buat mase skng la..coz aku xdmud nk berbuat begitu buat mase ni..bnde yg kite wat sala walaupon kecik tp lame2 jd besa gak..n pd aku pe yg ko wat cmtu la gak..ko mcm xknl aku lak..fine..maybe ko sedar if aku tau bnde sebenar time tu aku akn bising..tp bising2 aku pon aku xd bising lame en..so yg ko nk simpang siur tu np?kn lg bgs aku tau dri ko drpd aku tau dri owg len..hailaa..jgn la cemni..bukannye ko xknl aku..lek2 sudaa..aku emo..yes..tp aku bkn jnis yg simpan dalam hati laa..

kamon la kwn..ape2 hal ckp jela ngan aku terus terang..aku pnt la nk lyn owg yg simpang siur ni..bukan korg xknl aku..klu ye xknl aku len cite aa..ape2 xkna gtau jela..marah2 aku time tu pon bkn aku marah lame gile smpai xnk ckp ngan korg da..paling lame pon satu due hari..plg kejap bape minit je aku bengang..nk men sorok2 lak..ko pusing2 mane pon die datang balik gak en..pela..

wohoo!

wey2!semalam aku naek roller coaster ats jalan!bes2!hahaha...bak kt akmal..nek roller coaster pon xrs cuakk cmtu..hahahah..tp bes laa..teruja aku..hahha..bukan selalu dpt teruja la kn fahmy kn?haha..len kli ko bwk kitorang nek keta api lak la eh?chuuu2!hehe..em2..semalam afte blik dri kenduri shaa,fahmy kt blik ikut die..time tu aku n yna je due org pompuan..n laki2 banyaakk..meh kt kire..akmal,fahmy,mek,wan,munir,shai n last but not least apiz..aku tepikir time jalan ngan dorg..klu la mak bapak aku tgk aku jalan ngan dorg msti cam xcye ank die ley kwn ngan mereka2..hahaha..klakar lak bile pikir balik..tp2..akku rs bes lak..ye aaa dooo..tgk la jalan yg kitorang lalu..scary do..dgn adenye jantan2 tu yg sume cm bajet2 scary en aku pon xdla scary ne..hahaha..xd owg banie dekat..haha..padahal aku xrapat sgt pon ngan dorg..sakai je..

artis??

hahaha..yna da pecah rahsia dulu aaaa..ok sambung dari blog yna..pagi nie d owg miskol aku..mle2 xnk lyn tp kot2 aku knl so aku miskol la blik..skali msk msg..

die :skng aku kat pulapol ngah training
aku:sape ni?
die :aku mawi r..kwn satu kmpg pun xsimpan num..xptt2
aku:aku xknl mane2 mawi la ngok
die :pelik2..aku nk msg togok..ntah sape2 r daknye bg kat aku

then aku stop..aku d ty die bkal polis ke tp ble cam da mgarot aku stop..weyyyyy..sjak bile ad dak name mawi kat kampung aku??kampong aku n9 aa weyyyy..mawi nye aku tatau ktne tp mmg bkn n9 aaaa..da la bg aku nme mawi..nyampah je aku dgr..tah sape2 la pulak togok tuhh..naseb bek die x bg name mmba die tu hanz isaac ke..fahrin ke..plek2 tol do..

baik la cpt...

dammit..let me ask ya one thing..gimme one aspect of ego does ya good..i know i dont really hv anything to do wif this but watching you both just make me go crazy!y does it hv to go this way?i know..it is easier said than done..tp korang....sampai bile korang nk mcm ni?aku xtau smpai bila aku boley tahan wat dono je weyyy.saket jiwa aku tgk korg cmni...tolong laaa...satu soalan je aku nk ty korg..mane lg penting?ur ego o frenship yg da korg bina for about ten years?sepuloh taun bukan sekejap...da mcm2 korg xperience same2..korg pon da paham ngan prangai masing2..jangan la taun trakhir kite kat skola same2 ni korg nk masam2 muke..smpai bile korg nk perang dingin?aku minta sangat2...xkesala sape mula dulu...aku nk kawan aku same2 balik.....sory klu korg terase o geram aku ckp ceni tp aku da xthn da..

malapetaka

semalam satu KEMALANGAN telah berlaku..huhu..semasa aku hendak menuang sup dalam bekas titibe plastik tu slip! out of ma hand..jatoh ats kaki aku but mostly kt peha..SAKET WEYHHH..naek octave sore aku berganda2!dat sup was suppose to be ma lauk for last night but at last jd mknn kaki aku..selamatt..abh n mk yg da kua nk mik angah kt epot terpksa path balik..haha..terbukti sudah aku mmg ank abh..time alang kol abh abh sure tdgr latar belakng yg berbunyi 'abahhhhhh!balik laaaaaaa!!!!'ahaha.....rs perit kulit aku doeeee..xbanie nk tgk..y ltkkn ubt pon abh..ahaha.....rini aku xg tuition pon...huhuhuhuhuhu...tidakk!tlepas satu klas bmkne tpkse memerah otak dua kali gnde nex wik nk phm pe yg sir aja..aku xbanie n pkai suaa..haha..pelik ke?ad owg xbanie pkai suar..huhuhu..nyway..its getting better i guess..ad cket je kulit cm gelembung..sgt2 kecil..so i'm al better i guess..huaa....actually..time aku keperitan tuhh aku tepikir byk pkara y wat aku cm tesedar..whn we encounter hardship bru kita nk tepikir bnd2 yg spatotnye kita pikir lme da..

tanaaaaakkkk!

wahaha..harinie sgt la bmslh..haish3..pagi2 da ad owg cri pasl..aku msk lmbt first period td..g amik butiran dak 5B ntuk khemah ibadah tue..eyy..due2 klas kat ctu mmg kasi aku tnggu lme2 ow..aku ngan ku smpat blaja sjarah lg ngan pn norhanim..BPK LEMBARBB..aku rs cm nk ngamok je..tp xpe..nsib bobo xd ckgu..ble aku msk klas plak..si chris ngokk tu nk cri pasl..smlm time aku dok sblh frhn time cek ketas +mad,ttbe die lalu n ty,korg couple ey?aku cam wtf??mmg x ahhhh doeee!dlm mimpi pon XKAN!cm siottt je..then si frhn ngokkkk si lg sekorrr pegi MENGIYAKAN..aku btol2 panasss..hampas btol mamat tuh..die kt die nk wat lg rmai owg salah phm pasl kitorang..eyyyyy..nyirapp aku deyy!ok..back to d story arinie..chris ngokk tu saje je dok tmpt aku sblh awekk die..hisyam lak dok tmpt iraa..n tmpt yg kosong is sblh frhn..aku pndg chris..aku pndg hisyam..aku pndg frhn..chris sengih die punye sengih yg wat aku rs nk tmpar mke die tuh..aku diamm je..wat mke bodoo..aku mik paper BI kt dpn n tros dok sblh frhn wat krgn..lg dilayan budak2 hampas tuh lg saket jiwa aku dibuatnye...then ms pon blalu...aku da bis kutip data yg ustzh nk..haha data..xtreme tol pktn..nyway time nk bg bnd tu kt ustzh far ikowt skali..then die tlepas ckp pasl die x g..huhuhuhuhuhu..ble nme die xd ustzh pasn nme aku xd n ble nme aku xd uz=stzh pasan nme yna xd...adoyaiiiiii...xpasl2 ktorg dipkse pegi lakk ngn ustzh...ttbe lak kitorg diwajibkan...ayyyyy....ad2 je ustzh ni oww...waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!xnk g!!!!!n again...prg dingin tercetusss...haaaa...ntra gladys n lilly..nyirap xnyirap....n runtuh lg skali dinding aku.....bnd yg paling aku xnk jd.....da la dpn owg yg mmg xkn tepikir oleh otak aku owww....n rahsia itu!!!!arghhhhh!!!!!

thnx

ehem2!di sini saye nk wat post recap.walaupon bnd nie cm da lme jd.d week before xm to be exact..tapi2..sy stil nk ucapkan kt cni..di sini dgn rasminya sy nk ucapkan berbanyak2 time kaseh to zati n shaa mostly.tah camane korg menjadi owg yg paling x bertuah ntuk jd penonton drama terhebat pada zaman ini.n aku sangat3 berterima kaseh pada korg.n sincerely to sae no one has eva seen me so broken like that before.n pengakuan2 yg saya buat dpn korg xpena diketahui oleh sape2.thnx sangat2 for being there.walaupon u gurls happen to at the wrong place at the wrong time..n thnx a bunch to karti for ur thought,wani for ur shoulder n naa for letting me gripping ur hand.naa punya bday was on tuesday..i didnt wana spoil d fun..so lets just sae i purposely didnt look for her..yela..dorg ingt aku da ok..coz i wasnt around on monday..who wud hv thought i was miserable whn they didnt knw nyting rite?

ps: love u all damn much!

me again

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ mid year xm da bis..muahaha..suda tidak ad beban ditanggung..well for now ahhh.nyway...5-days-mourn were over..n im me again..im grateful for that..i dont wana talk bout d xm o comment nyting bout it..nyway..spm here i come!haha.sakai....

me.now.

hmm.
feel attached.
but its not love.
always say you're here.
but where are you?
i was broken.
but no one to turn to.
i keep it inside till now.
wonder when it will spill out.
so disoriented.
i'm everywhere.
cant think straight.
so many sins.
can't just evaporate, can they?
didnt kiss.
not because i dont want.
i just didnt know.
regret?
what can it do?
less than one week time.
how to cope?
i need strength.
who can give?

baby

pipahhhhh~ rini aku nye post xemowwww~ hahahahhaa.ble aku tgk je mke die hilang sume mslh aku.rs dunia aku dipenuhi bunga2 je.rs mcm racun xpena wujud...hahahha.skemmm.serius do.tu bru ank buah.blm ank sdri enn.hahaha.aku tatau la klu aku sorg je rs cemni tp...ble aku tgk mke nurul arifah liyana a.k.a. ank along n kaklong a.k.a. first ank buah aku,aku rs senang hati....hilang terus keemoan aku selama berhari2.diganti dengan tangisan n mke blur ank buah aku yg da lme xjmpe fam aku.da dok kt johor cane nk jmpe selalu enn.ni d cuti pjg bru kaklong dpt balik.da xknl kitorang da si baby tuh.nmpk mke kitorang tros nanes.tp cepat je elok dgn aku.....muahahahaha.cume ngan abh je lmbt...maybe coz mke abh garang sgt.tu yg takot si nurul tuh.hahahahaha.nnti aku mskkn gmbar die yg super cute tunjuk kat korang!!daa

hati

dammit.mlm nie ttbe mood aku rs xbek la plak.rs tertekan tu dtg balik.rs yg aku rs a few weeks back.the feeling that makes me feel i dont wana to wake every single day.hailaaa...mengapa dibolak balikkan hatiku begini.hai hati....luahkn la sumenye......hahaha.ble da ckp ngarot2 ceni bru ad rs nk ke arh bek cket prsn tuh.tp btol.xsukenye rs begini.xringan cm bbrp hari belakangan nie.ringan la hati.jgn la berat begini.tenang la hati.hati kusayang....tenanglah sayang.....hilang la masalah.....pergila masalah.....dammit....now i know where my key of happiness has gone to.i really know.act i oredy thought where it'd gone to.cume xnk ngaku je.tp haha.....sebudu-budu ne pon,my mind still goes back to there.bangkit la hati.....bangkit la......seterok-terok mane pon kehancuran yg yg diterima, pasti boleh bangkit.adoyaiiiiiiiii.tah ayt buku motivasi ne tah aku angkut niiiiiiiii.bingung!dah!xnk pk pasl tuh.ni aku nk ckp ni.dak yg cri mslh ngan aku tu kt kt mmber aku yg die rindu nk dgr sore aku.aku cam.............ha?whathefish??die yg cari pasl then skng nk kt ceni plak?hmm.sesungguhnya aku xphm spesis ini.sungguh.walaupon name genesis nye same tp pebezaan yg umpama langit ketujuh dan kerak bumi menyebabkan aku xmampu nk menyimpulkan apa yg boleh difahami ttgnye.sungguh.klu nk suh aku wat exp pon aku rs wat smpai infinity pon aku rs aku nye exp tu fail.from the first try until the infinity.sungguh aku kt aku mmg hrpn aku nk tegur die.tp esok2 sape tahu.klu tuhan da bolak-balikkan hati kita untuk maafkan die,kite bole buat pe.wlu pe kite ckp skng, tu xkn ubah pe yg akn jd esok.yea.walau aku kt aku xkn trime kehadiran die tp esok sape tahu.walau pe pon yg jd esok hari aku doa semuanye baik untuk aku.sbb pe yg tuhan da tentukan sememangnye untuk kebaikan kita.jgn lupakan masa silam jadikan pedoman.jgn risaukan masa depan krn ia belum pas ti dan belum turun dari loh mahfuz.hidup untuk hari ini di mana ianya sedang berlaku dan pasti.hidup sebaik-baiknya tiap-tiap hari kerana hidup ini hanya untuk hari ini.waaaaaaaaaa.da mcm pakar motivasi siot!hahahahaha.okke.hati sy da lebih tenang dri td.ngee~ nk wat keje lak.assalamualaikum.=)

my roommmmmmmmmmm

i really dont like people enter my room.seriously i dont.my room is like a no-entry zone.my room is for me.before my brothers got married,they neva enter.ma dad pon neva enter.except klu nk btolkan pape.wayar telefon o sumting like that.ma mom masok if she wants to take any clothes o anta my clothes.i dont evn allow ma lil bro to enter.he knows well weather he can o not.he knows he shall bear my wrath if he does enters.dammit.it is so wrong for to hv my room for me only?after all its MY ROOM.the year i had my own room,truthfully i cn no longer feel comfortable to share a room with anyone nevertheless who that person is.even ma mom.i cn only sleep wif me.tp cm kem n sleepover kt uma far tu len cite ahh.haha.tp the thought that others sleep in MY ROOM on MY BED with me SLEEPING IN ANOTHER ROOM just pissed me offfffff.seriously............evn if it was my bro n ma sis yg sleep in ma room.label me wateva but thats me.fullstop.i want my room now.......i guess this is the longest period anyone eva inhabitat my room with me under the same roof but diff room.until isnin depan!arghhhhhhhhhhh!another SIX NIGHTSSSSSSSSSSS!

tembak kang!!

hari ni aku sefamili tolong angah pindah rumah.kepenatan kepanasan kelaparan aku dibuatnye.habis wt keje kul 2 lebey.seyes do balik tu aku mandi xingat dunia.nikmat xterhingga.tp xpasal2 ad plak makhluk Allah nie yg cari pasal ngan aku...........aku rs nk tempeleng je manusia tuh.sesedap ajinamoto die je nk label kn aku pe...........owg da elok2 sejuk kasi nyirap balek enn.adoii.panasss je hati.then bley lak komplen yg aku asik emo ngan die jerrrr.da terang lagi besuluh lampu neon die yg cri pasal.....ni yg wat aku rs nk lanyak die ngan bulldozer.hahahaha.da mula da bhs thp mlampau ala2 hlovate.ececeyy.x x x.k la.smpai di cni dlu pembuka bicara pd petang ini.kt betemu lg di esok hari.insyaAllah....

azfar si pengacau

dari awl lg aku mmg xpena bekenan ngan si azfar tu.mmg mulut laser.xd insurans.awl tu aku xdla kesa pasl die.tp last yer ad satu hari nie aku dtg lmbt ntuk +mad.n seingat aku aku badmood.time aku dtg tuh aku cm terhempas pintu.yela..pintu tu mcm bole pusing 360 degree jerr.bukan salah aku 100 pesen klu pintu tu terhempas enn.then xpasl2 nk wat aku lg nyirap,time aku lalu sblh mamat sengkek tu,die kt gengster...eyyy.suke hati aku laaa.ad aku kaco ko ke skng?ko wat pe pun aku xpena komplain pape ennnn.then rini lakkk.maimun la cite kat aku.aku dtg tusyn lmbt.far xdtg again.die kna blik kg .d kenduri.maimun cite.time sume owg da masuk,sir ty mane due org datin nie xdtg lg?aku dgr je cm aelaaaaaa.pe ni sir???ne d kitorang cm datin..yg tige ekor dlm klas tu yela enn.cam murai tercabut bulu dada........nk2 si azfar tuhhh.ok back to d story.then zahed jwb,farisa xdtg hafizah xsmpai lg.haaa ni nk sampai klimax niehh.si azfar xsayang mulut tuhhh g smbung....die kt gengster slalu dtg lmbt.then sume owg pon gelak...........aku cam ayyyy.ko phal nk kuang aja ngan aku?ad aku ganggu hidop ko skng?mmg mulut xd insurans.mmg aku da bisg2 aa time tu.tp maybe die xpasan pon pasl pe.then kitorang ad test au.time da nk bis ms tu die xbis2 kacau2 owg enn.mmg dasar pengacau hidop owg.sampai sir xthn die bajet marah aa(sir mmg xley marah kot...mrh xdrupe mrh.comell je tgk.hahaha) die kt azfar ni kan.mcm2 tau.die ni asik mcm ni ke? aku pon cam yela sir,die mmg mcm ni.banyak karenahhh.haa.tediam kawww.ko jgn ingt aku diam aku xley balas balik.ko bisg pasl aku lg siap ko!nk cari gado ngan aku.ko ingt aku xreti nk balas??boley jalan laaaa weyy.=p

ahhhhhhhhhhhh

smlm me n ma fwens g pesta buku.spatotnye g ngan rombongan skola tp ustazah tpkse cancel last minute coz xd trnspot.so kitorng g la sdri.senanye aku malas nk g.xd wit kot.aku tatau a tp taun ni mmg pokai gile......aku malas nk minx wit dri abh..aku xgtau pon abh aku g sna coz aku xd niat nk bli pe2.nk minx ngan mak pon xd niat.mak pon cm xske aku g.ble aku kt ari kamis aku nk g pesta buku d nex day,mak aku da bisg da.ckp jgn g mlencong tmpt la pe la.haisy....skng tiap2 ari kna condemn ngan mak,tension thp gaban.pd die aku xblaja pape.da ceni cra aku blaja nk wat cane.pkse aku cane pon ceni gak aku.tekanan2.......................ok back to da story.smlm bru aku dapat rayau2 btol pesta buku tuh.weyyyy.nyesal siot x explore time g ngan abh!!!!byk gile buku aku jmpe!!!!!ahhhhhh!da la pokaiiiii.mmg harapan la nk bli pape..............heisy...............time aku n yna cri buku faisal tehrani tuh,pnt jgn kt ahhh.da bp puluh kali pusing tmpt sme,alih2 ble ty akak kat utusan tuh,booth yg jual buku faisal kt lua pintu msk jerrrrr.tp bbaloi gak ahhhh.da jmpe tuh,byk gilerrrrr buku die dooooo.ya Allah...lg la aku haru xd wit.........................nyway,ble dorg bisg ty2 asl aku xbli,aku cm bngng gk a.then time nk mkn pon nk bisg2 mmg cm kasi aku nyirap a.last2 mkn mcd so cm ok a.aku ingt nk ajak abh rini g pesta buku balik tp...............pk balik due tiga kali...................i cnfim u mak aku mesti bisg................tgk a nk bli buku pe...ahhhhhhhhhh.TEKANAN.....

darnnnnn

yestrsay..during maths period,pn rusnah called me.she asked me to get farhan,manwyn n charissa oso.i was like hm ok....pehal ni ttbe?when we gathered she said that we'll be representing the school for a maths quiz.hmmm.ok..thiz cmpetition started 4 years ago.n the first year SAB was the champion.ok.bangge la cket en.from 50 schools,SAB got first.for mths quiz.kre ok la.but for the scnd n third year SAB xhnta nyone.i cnt rememba the reason.so so so.the forth year.............kitorang la yg masuk...................keberatan gak senanye.she told us 'she recomended ur names to me.i nevr teach u b4 rite so i stil duno ur nature.'we was like....sape she??who the hell is this she??sape plak yg penah aja aku,frhn manwyn n charissa at the same time??aku n farhan cm cri the possible culprits but we cnt find any.ntah sape2 minah tu.well...da kna pilih tu wat jela.do the best..chayo fizh!=) tp2!satu je aku xbekenan............the fateful day falls on fifth of may.........................do u want me to repeat??FIFTH OF MAYi was like huhhhh????dammit.......................

blaaaa

o yea o yea!aku nk cite nk cite!haha.ttbe excited enn.nk cite pasl mamat tu la.skng en kitorang da x btegur.aku da meluat smpai ape2 pasl die pun aku da delete.gmbar dlm fon n num die.haha.ttbe smngt nk cite en.owg bc mampos aaa.=p haaa.smlm silat au.kitorng d lwn olahraga.aku lwn ngan zati.smngt gilerrrrr bg support kat zati.haa.xheran la weyyyyyy.ble die lwn pon smngt je aku bg support kt naim.pe?die ingt die sorg je boley buat?boley jalaaann.mmbe aku sume support die enn.die lak cam smngt gile lwn.satu saat pon aku xtgk.tmbus je mate aku tgk wakaf kat blkg tuh.=ppp ye rakan2...support la support.pawe gilerrrr en die.then td.kitorang tgk dak2 sab perform men instrument.time pnb td,zati dok ty.lagu pe yg die men tu.dok exited2 nk ingt.pandang aku plak tuh.pe?ingt aku nk jwb aa skng.aging lalu aku xnk ingt.pndg owg len sudaaa.k tu je nk story.haha

kecelakaan

baru-baru nie aku tertekan pasl due makhluk Allah.satu ni aku mmg da give up ngn die.xd sekelumit prsn da dlm diri aku nk bebaek ngn die.hahaha.sekelumit prsn.cam skemaa.nyway..lg sorg ni plak mmg pnh d sjrh xbaek ngn aku.nk2 lg ngan mmbe2 aku yg tersayang.klu die ad dlm celah2 time aku bsama geng aku,ketidakselesaan amaaaat dirasai.dats way ble die mgade2 bajet mrajuk ngn aku,aku xhirau.xckp ngan die ntuk jgka ms tertentu amat dialu-alukan.klu x rs mcm most of the asik menempel je kt aku.rimassssss.d stu time tu ngade2 sgt xtegur due hari,aku mls ah.aku kt kt karti,aku nk tuka tmpt.mls aku nk bdok sblh dak bisu.then asik2 sindir dri jauh kuat2.hari nk tuka tmpt tu xpasl2 nk emo2.sdgkan die yg stat dlu.nex wiknye aku dtg msk klas,bole plak die sengih2 cm xdpe jd.siap bg aku bear gantung.nk pujok ke?mls pjg cite aku ok jela.tp bgs btol aku tuka tmpt.xdla aku kna tadah telinga dgr bnde geli geliman bebakul2 yg klua dri mulut die.naek bulu roma aku doe.aman cket hari2 aku yg mendatang............

em2.baru2 ni d satu kecelakaan blaku kt sorg budak tu.ble izan story kt aku,hmm mmg jujurnye aku risau.da bli mknn aku tu,aku dok cri die xjmpe.aku ingt hati aku mmg da kosong..ble jd bnde2 ceni,bru nmpk..rupenye aku boleh lg risaukan die.yea aku tau mmbe aku taley trime die sejak knl lg.sape bole do..klu aku ni mmbe aku pon aku taley trime.ble tau die msk spital ad gk rs nk g lwt.nk2 time tu lak rmai y g kem.ingt nk ajak izan n yna.tp ble abh kt ari ahd nk g pesta buku,aku kt la nk g lwt kejap.ikut mood abh la klu die kasi.nasib lak dpt g.xdpun aku ajak yna.rs2 die mcm xkn nk g.heh.dorg tau pn d nex day.hm.ingtkn owg xtau.rupenye ad gak.tekejut gak aku d owg pelok aku ttbe.xpenah2 pelok en.ingtkan sbb pe la...aku tepikir gak pasl study die.tp np nk mik kesa lg.aku da nasihat die pe yg patot.so aku rs smpai tu jela rs risau aku.mls nk beratkn pale.k la.nk g tusyn.salam

life

u know...people are given various types of hardship to be encountered.so many...until at one point we feel that we cant endure it.we cant stand it anymore.its just so damn hard.so damn suffocating.have u ever wake one day and u feel like there's no point of living anymore?u dont feel happy at all and it feels like all the burdens of the world are on your shoulders and u cant just take it anymore.u are so stressed up that getting up each morning is meaningless.and u have to gather each strength that you have just to get yourself out of bed.i never feel like this before but it seems i have been feeling this for most of my days recently.its just so damn hard to go on.to perform according to the expectations of your family, be the best and all the while problems just keep coming banging so hard at u until u feel that u need all the will that u have just to stand up.sometimes its hard to enjoy and feel happy.i wonder where is my key of happiness?someone said maybe i forgot where i put it.i just have to find it.or maybe someone has stole it?life at school suppose to be the best memory in my life.i dont want it to be a nightmare.why must this last year be the most difficult year?i really need all the strength that i can get to go through this year.life has never been as hell as this as before.some people just dont want to understand.all they think about is themselves.is it so hard to come and face me and just solve the problem together?why must they make it so hard for me every single day?just get out of my life and dont come back.i dont need u to worsen my condition.

haihh

she's here...semalam amik...but to me...i really dont strangers staying in ma house...its like revealing ma fam's secrets to them...i am sooooo not liking this...but what can i do...this has to be done...pelik gle rs ad owg gosokkan bj aku weyyyy...sheeeshh...then lipatkan baju aku...sumpah xslesaaa...die da gosok baju aku aku g gosok balik...coz die da lipat tros...baju aku yg die da lipat aku bawak nek atas masuk bilik...aku bukak n lipat balik...cra die lipat xsme ngan cara aku...i dont know if all gurls are like this but....i like my own style of lipat baju....n i definitely dont like if its not done like how i done it.hmm....bkn nk kt pe...tp mmg xbese la...rs cm xd privasi pon d gak.huhuhuhu.saba jela fiza.....its gonna be apart of ur life for i dont know how long......

emo

today is the last day of school before the first term holiday.seriuosly it has been a stressful day for me.i dont know why recently i really gets emo easily and nevertheless to say, this situation has backfired me today.one of the events is the time when i were to collect maths books to be sent to pn rusnah.seriously,dont they know they have responsibilities?a normal scene when collecting books is the person who collects the books will be the one who have to search for people who have to send the books.it suppose to be the other way around.reminder to myself:next time i have to collect the books,i will only ask once.if they still do not pass up,i'll just consider they dont want to pass up.why do i have to make myself more stress than i already am?absolute rubbish right?like pn usha said,jona's responsibility is to collect english books and send them to her,OUR responsibility is to send to books to jona.we were the ones who have to find him,NOT the other way around.i dont give a damn if they dont even want to send the books.not my concern.my concern is only for those who wants to send the books.so,if they want to send the books,pandai-pandailah hantar bila da siap buat.do you really expect me to look for you everytime just to ask wether you really want to send the books or not?in your dreams............if it isnt because you borrowed jona's book,i wouldnt even give a damn and wasting my time to find you.all the while you were at f4's block to monitor the kawad when actually you have an unfinished business with me.you were always like that.very forgetful.and all the while you said i am becoming more terok.you yourself tak reflect balik.always saying i'm becoming more amd more emo when actually it was you who always becomes the reason behind my emo-ness.yaya bong.=ppppppppppp another event was when i want to find a teacher.ustazah called for me.no matter.i went.my neighbour was with me.bila nk kluar dari makmal islam tu xpasl2 plak my shoes tinggal sebelah.......ayyyy.nk gurau mmg xkna time.he put one of my shoe in front of the back door of 5m.and when i went to go and retrieve it back,he THREW IT INSIDE THE CLASS................ayyyyy.mmg bebulu.da la lps tu chem.nk ceroboh klas tu xboleh.ckgu ad kat dpn.shzwan was there.he saw the whole thing.he was sitting at his place with kya and amin and all.and i was outside the class.he SAW me.and yet,HE DIDNT EVEN GET UP TO PASS ME MY SHOE.wat bodoooooo jerr.time tu mmg da menggelegak da.............da la i was standing on one leg.bape kali ckp ngan die suh passkan kasut tu tah.ble last2 die bgn dri tempat die nk bgkan kasut lg sblh tu,branie lg nk gelakkan aku.ayyyyyy.mamat sekor neyyyy.mmg nk wat aku nek angin.later after school,i totally cant stand the tension.i cant even talk to my mates,fearing that if i open my mouth,i will cry.even when i was in the car,i avoid any conversation,even with cik intan,by distracting myself to read a book.bape kali tah aku tahan dari broke down.nak2 time cik intan cite pasl mak,mmg aku pekakkan tlinga.klu x mmg da banjir da.the only time when my mood was starting to get back to normal was during tuition.bru cam boley cakap2 ngan dorg.klu x,sepatah haram aku xsebut.sory gurls, if you felt hurt by my attitude.

maself

aku xphm senanya mengape aku taley benci die.kt sahabat aku lemah..btol ke?tah la.pd pndgn die begitu diri aku ble bhdpn dgn makhluk ney.tp seyes ckp sepanjang idop aku,aku xdpt nk bnci owg.mungkin mmg da dijadikan aku ney bkn jenis yg pendendam.ramai owg tau.aku ney sentiemo n cpt n sng gile marah.smpai satu tahap marah aku da kemuncak gile mmg bebakul2 carotan aku bg kt owg yg aku marah tuh.bnd tuh mmg bese.itulah diri aku y lg satu.aku bukn sahabat2 aku yg boley kawal kemarahan dorg.aku bkn mereka yg boley lupekan org yg bwk mslh pd diri mereka.aku bkn mereka.aku adalah aku la.cemni la aku.cemne pon pndgn sahabat aku pd aku,prangai aku mmg cemni.cthnye d sorg mmbe yg aku dok kt aku bnci gile time skola rendah.mmbe pompuan.kt je bnci.tp ble kua ritu senanye xrs ape pon.aku hy rs bnci ble aku rs marah kat seseorang tuh.itu prangai aku.yg makhluk ney,ye mmg btol limit kesabaran aku die da cecah.n pd rapat ke x ngn die skng bkn mslh besa.aku da xkesa.ye aku marah dgn pe yg die wat kat aku.n aku rs bnci time aku marah tuh.tp skng aku xrs ape.so klu aku ckp ngan die pon xd pe prsn.aku senang cemni.aku senang xcntct die sgt.mcm bnd ney rutin harian.cntct hari2 senanye buang ms aku.so ble titibe xmsg tiap2 ari,bkn satu kejutan budaya pd aku.a guy is not a need.but a friend is.so d point is,aku ckp ke x dgn die,xd bezanye.ma life is stil d same.aku phm klu sahabat2 aku marah dgn pe y aku buat, xapprove n sebagainye.tp xkn korg xphm prangai aku lg.klu xdegil tu bkn fizah namenye.pe y owg xkasi buat tu la y aku buat.aslkan bnd ney xjejaskan aku, aku harap sahabat2 aku relakan.wlupon dlm hati dorg senanye xrelakan lgsg.sape nk disaketkan hati kn?aku tau tahap aku.skng,pd aku,die nk buat ape pon,bukn mslh aku,bkn hal aku ntuk diamik beratkan.xd ape ntuk disakethatikan.sbb skng pd aku,die sape...

lipas durjana.............

ok..saya ad cite yg agk taley belahhh...maybe mmg taley blahh pd sesetengah org enn.ok.cite die ceni.due mlm lepas au..abah suh aku pasangkan suis kipas nk keringkan kasut adik..aku bru bgn dri tmpt y aku bese wat keje tuh...adik ad kat sebelah aku..titibe die jerit...'abahhhh!!!ad lipas!!!!'then die lari g kat abah....aku nmpk a lipastuh enn..kat sebelah tangga tuh..merayap dgn kegeliannya.........aku cm ok.....ad lipas....thennnnn dgn xpasl2 nyeeeeee si lipas tuhhh titibe nk gne die punye agen penerbangan!!!!aku cam 'aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!abh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1die terbang!!!!!!!!!!!!!cepat bunoh abh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!' at d same time aku dah lari bdiri ats krusi yg ayh aku slalu dok mgadap laptop die................adik pon xpasl2 nk menambah beban ats krusi tuhh....die g bdiri ats krusi bersama2 dgn aku.......dgn cuaknye aku mencari lipas tuh.....abah da kua dari dapo bawak penyapu....agaggagagagaga....aku cam 'tuuuuuuuuuuu!tuuuuuuuuuu!lipas tuh ad kat tangge!abh cepat bah bunoh die!jgn bg die lari!!!!!!!!!!!!!!cari smpai dpt bahhhh!!!!!!!!!' smpai saat ayh aku da pukol2 lipas tuh...dok tarik2 makhluk tuh dgn penyapu nk buang kat lua,aku pndg je dri ats krusi......................abh kt 'hahhh.tgk laaa.ni lipas tu hah.dah...abh da buang dah..' bru aku turun dri krusi.....................xpasl2 abh aku ckp 'patotnye abh tngkp gmbar korg bdue td.......dgn lipas2 ney skali....bley buat cite dlm blog..........' aku cam haaa yelaaaaa2.tngkap la gmbaaaa.amik la balik lipas tuh td kat lua..tngkp gmba die haaa.sooo.itulah citenye.....btape lipas menjijikkan n menggelikan aku...................bile die da stat terbang tuhhhh........................pergh....mau aku lari satu batu........................

shittoss bastards

tension tahap gaban.sy xdpt wat graph +mad.st pon xdpt.sik sala wat je.nk wat bi tp tgk ketas je pale serabut gile.n i just dpt tau y mgu ney gne jadual bru.n just now karti just asked me wether i know d jadual.i was like........if karti didnt know......then who knows?ketua pon tatau......kelas laen da dpt.....ty ira pon tatau.....da tmbh stu mslh......i am not sory to sae u guys make ma days a living hell.dis is d third day ma day is like a living hell.2 hari bz.first wif d kusus n 2syn thing.scnd wif d knduri.sy sgt tension due tige ari ney smpai nk wt hw pon beserabut.i dnt know wat went wrong but it seemed like i cant even plot d points correctly.........i dont even know if i got the scales correctly........soklan stu da sala....ty farh td bp points dpt cross....die kt 5.........stu je xdpt............y aku wat td sume points pon xdpt............................klu nk dpt best fit pon ley dpt due points je............what the hell??!!da la tatau jadual...so im not sure wether sok d +mad ke x..........anta msg kt owg pon xbls........so aku xdpt wt keje.............im stuck in ma own house.........cmne nk hilgkan tension ney?................yesterday i cried so much that i just cant think rite.....stupid bastards..........................y must in this whole wide world u guuys decided to make my life a living hell.....y me??n at the same time??shittoss btol...........u shittoss cn go to anywhere u like n please get out of ma life............dammit.............n i tot this one guy wil neva be d same as d other.but i guess im wrong.u both r d same shittoss who r able to make ma life a living hell.thnx a lot bastards...............

rs nk mgamok....

aku rs cam nk mgamok je smlm....da la kna g kursus kepimpinan tuh smpai satu stengah....aku da la d tusyn kul 3....smpai umah dalam kul 2 lebey.....da la xmkn tgh hari....dapat mkn 5 roti jala je.....lapa taya ckp ahh..tp d als perot tuh kre ok la....smlm aku kol dorg xagkt aku rs nk mgamok je....tgh pnt gile.....nk rehat pon xsmpat tros kna g tusyn......then mlm tuh xpasl2 sume laki cam nk cri pasl ngn aku..............d sorg tuh wat aku rs cam bitch gile babeng........cam aku ney player tahap lantai jerrr cra die cakap tuh..............aku pena wat sala kat die...so aku phm klu die aggp aku ney trok.....aku rs pd die aku ney cam kcik sangat2 kt mte die......skng nk rapt pon da taleyy......lpas pe y aku da wat kt die.....aku rs die pk aku neyy trok gile......ok aku mgaku aku yg sala....n mmg taley wtpe.....aku mmg da hilg die as kwn rapat.....nk jd kwn cm bese pon aku da rs kekok.....coz aku tau die taley lupe.........pd die slmenye aku ney trok......sebaek mne pon die aku tetap yg trok......tape...mmg silap aku......n minx maaf la klu aku kt aku da xley nk cope dgn die dgn baek.....aku rs lepas neyy aku hy akn ckp ngn die pasl keje je......n d sorg tuh wat aku rs besala.....tp ney xdpe sgt coz die pon slmber jerr....so aku pon xdla risau sgt pasl die neyy.....tp lg sekor makhluk tuhan yg mmg sngaje cri pasl ngan aku tuh xbis2 asik sala anta msg jer.................bajet gile babun...............aku da smpai tahap bengang gile ble bc die putarbelit ayt aku...............bg tau satu dunie y aku tatau nk agp ko kwn ke x...............bg la tau............bia sume owg tau.....bnd sekecik2 alam die nk jdkan sebesar2 dunia.....ya Allah........saket hati smlm xyah kt la..............smlm aku rs hati aku da beku tatau nk rs pe da...............bjet nk pgl aku saudari la gal la......hey saudara.klu bnd sekecik ney pon saudara da nk wat keco satu alam,klu sy bg saudara mslh besa tah keco mne saudara nk buat eh...xpayah nk kerek2 la.....bajet sala anta......kutok2 owg dlm msg tuh.....saudara mmg xkeje len ke nk saketkan hati sy je.....da jd hobi ke?minx maaf la klu saudara nk kt sy ungkit tp klu nk dibandingkan pe yg saudara pena buat kt sy bnd yg sy ckp tuh mcm habuk kna tiup angin je.....saudara punye mcm katrina langgar usa......n sori lg skali klu sy ungkit tp klu la saudara y ckp cmtu kt saya saya rs sy hy wat keco sehari n kt akn jd cam bese blik.............ye.....mmg sng sy lepas pandang stiap kali saudara saketkan hati sy......tp maaf la....kali ney sy rs saudara da mlampau........tahap kemanjaan n kegedikan prangai saudara tu wat sy jd panas...........n da nasib saudara,saudara cari pasl ngn sy pd hari yg mmg mood sy sgt xbek n hati da jd south pole..........whai saudara kayu api......saudara kna sedar......da bape kali saudara wat sy saket hati tp sy tetap maafkan saudara n lupekan pe yg saudara buat......n da bp byk kali kwn2 saya da membebel kt saya pasl saudara tp sy tetap kwn dgn saudara.........agknye saudara tlampau kayu api sampai tlepas pndg bnd ney......tp saudara jgn lupe......stiap kesabaran ad limit die.......n limit sy hy smpai semalam......sy da pnt n da sgt2 besaba dgn prangai ngade2 saudara......lepas 3 hari perang dingin pon sy boley stil pk pasl dose xtgur 3 hari tuh....jd sy bls ble saudara tegur sy.........tp sy minx maaf ntuk 3 hari yg selepas2 ney........sy da xmampu nk lyn prangai saudara......i feel restless........skian time kaseh....

cuti kejap jerrr

now i know y he berperangai cmtuh..y he pelik2 je ttb..die d prob..n die tamau gtau aku..huhu..cdey2..ne ley die susa2 n aku tatau np..klu x cne nk tnterm..tp tapela..aku respek kptsn die..aku tgg smpai die da ready nk gtau pape..maybe die xcye kt aku lg untuk smpai kongsi mslh..well..dats not a big prob..aku da bese jd pendengar..tp lg cdey!!coz die cuti smpai slase je!!buhuhuhuhuhuhu.so nk jmp pun xsure ley ke x.arinie da snin.sok die da blik.buatnye arinie due2 bz ne dpt jmp..cdey2........tp senanye xdla cdey sgt.tkilan je xdpt jmp.wlupon uma dkt.da la mrsm susa nk blik.nk2 dis yer spm.lg la.man.jgn tncion2 k.be hepy~ hahaha.o yea.mas da wish aku.smlm.haidar kt klu die xingtkn mas maybe mas lpe tros nk wish.ala haidar..klu mas xwish aku majok jela ngn die.hahaha.smlm ttbe bet hp kong.mls nk charge.skali ble bkak je d msg dri mas.wish bday n ckp sowe.n yg xthn d 6 miskol!hahaha.da cuak la tuh.ingt aku majok.fasya pon wish aku ari bday.klu die lpe gak nk wish time cuti mmg mlampau a.lpas tuh aku kol a die blik.da la gne fon abah.hahaha.agk lme gak la en gayut.smpai abh da bising.to all y rapat ngn mas.sape2 y sdr dri.mas kem salam kpd anda.sian time kase.