ma heart todayy

dis is from d deepest of ma heart.emm.starting from d day i had made d decision to break the love relationship wif him,sincerely dere has been not one day dat i didnt teringatkn him.when i was angry i was all d way bullshitting him.seriously dats what i did.but then i cant remember wat day,i hd already forgiven him.xlame i took time 2 forgive.n neva one day he slip from ma mind.but wat had happen cn neva come back.aku pena terpikir klu bnde ney xjd.i evn thot if i accept him back.i evn wnt to be his love bck.tp pena terlintas jela.i neva took it seriously o think it deeply.coz its not worth it.wat had happen is d past n will neva come back.n wat neva hapen yet is soon to come n we neva know what's gonna hapen.what we know is today.n today wat i know is he is no more than a fren.he is no more than ma past.n he is not ma future.n today he cnt give me happiness.n today he has been d same him as before.a person who neva cared.but that doesnt matter to me anymo.i just pray that next time he treat his gurl well.as for me.eventho dis feeling is still within me.but it will soon be gone.n eventho sumtimes this feeling made me remembers him,he doesnt hv a special place anymo in ma heart.n i dont regret the decision dat i made to throw him out of ma heart.coz i know i cn find sumone beter.nex time.in d future.but i dont think its gonna be in d near future.i dont need another guy to 4get this one.if i cn 4get d one i like in primary school wif ma own strength,then i cn do it again.eventho dis is faaarr diff from d first situation.dulu ske maen2.dis one i regard as ma first love.hahaha.first love yg cekaii gilerr.bru pawe enn.sape bley tahan die enn.prangai cmtu.sape nk bwat pkwe.aku jerr yg putus fiuss.haha.

shzwan..

haha.now bout hatsuharu.gurls.read this n comment keyy.bnde neyy stat bbrp ari lpas.aku kn cm kesejukan so pkai sweater.haru neyy ingat aku dmam.aku ye kn je.rs cm dmm tp tah la.so die suh aku mkn panadol.aku eewww~ panadol? tamau la.die cm pkse3.so aku sj minx rocky.klu die bg aku mkn.so td smbut ambg tu.aku ingt die xdtg coz xnmpk pon.die jnji nk bg rini la.skali die ad.mle la die bg alsn ko op tutop la pe kejadah.so aku pon bia la.nk msk klas tu aku nmpk koop bkk.haa.nk kna la die tu enn.time tgh ckp psl die ngan hinata titibe die dtg klas.pjg umo~ mmg stret time tu gk aku naek kn octave sore aku.hahaha.sory la ye.normal reaction.haaa!ckp pasl nrml reaction.pg2 time aku dtg tu.dal soh aku pgg stu pndrive neyy siap ad love2 lg.time tue aku tatau sape nye.cc pon soh aku pgg.aku pdg plek je.tp aku pgg gak.thn cc kt haa die da pgg.mmg stret lpas tu normal reaction aku is baling bnde kejadah tuuu.hahahaha.nasib aku xbaling jauh2.rosak aku xtangguuunngg.korg yg soh pgg.rupe2nye roti wholemeal tue punyeeee.heh.pawe gile aura kebencian tuuuu.pergh.ok!back tu haru.lpas aku da bisg tu, time da nk blik die ajak aku g bli.aku bwk la beg.balik bdue la konon.dorg pn da bisg.siot tol dorg neyy.die pon nk mik beg.n i knw wholemeal tu nmpk.hohoho.so smpai koop ktorg jln.bli rocky.tau je la.bak kt zati aku kn mnje.so time tu aku dpt rskn prangai aku tu dtg.(eewwww) kak ani ty nk pe.aku kt la nk rocky.chocolate.time tu haru kt sblh la.kak ani kt xkn stu je.pkwe kamu neyy xkn xnk.beli la due.ktorg cm diaaaaaamm jee.die xckp pape pon.sengih taley blah.aku time tue da tergelak gilerrr!hahahahahahaha.pkwe???wakaka.then kak ani smbg.owww.nk mkn bkngsi ye.then aku gelak lg.hahahahahaha.adoyaiiii.lwk gile.then kak ani smbg lg tuu.ala kamu xpayala nk sorok.tah pe kejadah die mgarot aku xingat.weyy.gile xthn.hahaha.aku gelak je.

hellooo~ perampas??

ok.harinie kat skwl sgt bosan ye.very borrriingg.smbutn merdeka.psmbhn dorg agk sengal so ok r sket.die jd bes time dkt2 nk blik.u see.dat time when i went back to class.what i saw was yaya went to hinata's side n sat there wif her.i was thinking to left them both alone.tp hinata called me to go n come sit wif them.eleleyy.malu la tuuuu.haha.i shud left them alone.tp i'm sure if i did dat she wud went to sumwhere else.dats y i went.huu~ i thing dat i cant stand is her mentality.heh.i dont mind when she's jealous.i understand dat coz its human nature.but smpai mimpikn me too?haha.dats kinda absurd.its too much kot.but what i CANT stand is when she called me 'perampas'.dat word is taboo to me.cukup la atikah said yg kononnye tenten said i'm a perampas.which was totally untrue.she sae i rmpas midow ban from her.huhh.dat time was excrutiating.but now.haha.cm klaka.gado pasl mamat tuu?lgsg xbebaloii.n another time when elya tuduh me rmpas her frenss.she called me one day n asked 'asl awk slalu rmpas kwn sy ey?' i was like 'sory?when did i rmpas ur frens?since when we can own frens?n if she meant dat i'm starting to be rapt wif who she thot she rapat wif,y dont she asked them herself.y they r not rapt wif her n cn rapt wif me?'but of course i didnt said this straight to her face.i just sae it in ma heart.but seriuosly.i think she is more annoying than i am.i think laa.heh.then,dis hinata's case.she said dat i kan like to rampas all guys.hellooo~ since when babe?haa?since when did i rmpas anyoneee?haaa????udin?come on laaa.aku pon sekelas ngan udin.lame2 aku akn bork2 gak ngan die.perkare normal la tuuu.hving cnversation wif ma classmate.is dat wrong??2 pun da nk ovverrr.pgl aku perampas phall??haa.cra ckp tue mcm rmai sgt yg aku rmpas.kononnye.sape?yaya?hek.i'm thankful dat i cn stil be patient when she sae dat.its a good thing dat i didnt sae dirty words to her.da la skng mmg ringan je lidah aku neyy nk mencarot enn.ko baek2 ku.nk ckp tu tapis cket.sabar aku pon ad had ok yang.ur ma fren so i cn stil put up to u.but pleasseee.not dat word ok.jealous is fine.but mind ur words dear.

flirtious

haha.kegilaan melande ahh.xsngke lak kegatalan aku mendapat perhatian.haha.faten.aku book hotel baek punye.suite first class.ad jakuzi dlm tue.view top class punye lah.ko gtau je ble ko free.aku book anytime.agagagagaga.hee~ xsngke aku jd flirty ceni.eisyy.yg plg xthn ble kna goda ngan mira.uuiishh!gile menggode siall!takowt edenn.dengan kerlingan matenye.then suet2 gne mult.haha.klu die gode laki tue sure tergode.minta perhatian ye.saye bukn les.sy straight ye.sy stil tergugat dgn renungan kaum adam.tp skng xd godaan dri kaum adam yg diterime.harap maklum.oww!cme recently bru kna ayat dgn sumone.haha.

ayyaya

again.sunway rock ma world this cuti.mmg besss.aku da pnt ct smpai da tatau nk tulis pe kat cni.yg pasti i love it n wana have a go again if berpeluang.n ramen seeeddaaapppp sgt!seriusss xtipuuu.tp ikot taste owg la enn.i like it tho.nyum2~ len kli aku nk try tepanyaki lak.agagagaga.sushi kerrr.em.tp sushi tue cam jaaaaaauuhhh lg rr.sbb da la mhal gile n i dont like sgt.hmm.nape mud aku titibe cam tabess ey??rs hidop neyy kdg2 sng n joyful tp ble kt da abes hv fun,kt cm balik pd dunie yg nyata.n knyataan die xla sebess y di sangke.lg 2 hari stgh je nk cuti.then skola balik.no more njoyy.n i hv to face him.tu yg aku risauu neyy.aku ty la dowg.agk2 bp lme aku mik mase nk lpekan die.itik kt sebulan.aku rs xmungkin tue.sbb sebuln singkat sgt.lembu kt staun.hmmmm.yg tue pon aku cam xyakin lg.sbb die owg first.xkn sesenang tue aku lpekn die.aku agak la enn.gagak kt xmungkin.wawweee.takowtnye.die kt selagi aku jmp mangkok tue selagi tue aku xbole lpe.klu die pinda nex yer mknenye dlm nex yer aku bley lpekn die.tp klu die xpinda.afte f5 bru leyy.sbenanye aku sdri xyakin ble aku bley lpekn die.lpekn tuee mmg la bleyy.cme bp lme aku mik ms tue yg aku tatau.aku xjangke bnde akn jd sbenarnye.wlupon aku cam da set klu die wat hal lg aku akn lepaskn die tp aku xsngke secepat neyy.cam agk susa rr nk trime.hmm.haihh.saket la.aku xrs hati aku btol2 da trime yg aku da lepaskn die.nape hidop susa cemni ye?aku pnt la owg wat aku cemnie.seyes pnt gilak thp karma.aku rs nk belah je hati aku n buang rs saket tue.haaaa.kn da hiperbola bhs aku.amik kauu.Ya Allah.berikanlah aku kekuatan ntuk lepaskan die.tabahkan la hati aku.amin.

jom skate~

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lalalalala.

aku bru dri bkak myspace.aku bkak ms bitch tue.aku tgk pic die.pic before ney wlupon teramatlah gediwks smpai aku rs eww tp stil xd rs nk muntah .tp td!!!subhanallah.........geli gile doe!aku tgk cm nk puke giler2.giler2 punye nk puke..........yucks..........gile geli nk mampos...............da la bajettt!pastu baju cam xcukop kaen..................aku nmpk la kaki ko tue bitchy.................xpayala nk gediwkz sgt...............bajewt2 nk pkai mask..................tau r xnk tunjok mkeeeeeeeeeeee...............haaa.kn da kuang aja ney...heisyy.......seyes.........klu cun xpe gak....aku bley trime lg nk wat pic yg cm stylo en.............tp klu frm a bitchy gurl?owh my my...................i feel like wana puke until all my isi perot all come out......................aku xnk kt sory pon wlupon aku mmg da mmg kwang aja en.sbb ko tue bitchy so dere's no point if aku minx maaf.n aku xnk pon.sbb ko mmg xlayak dapt kemaafan aku.then lg gile bjett nk take pic dri tepi nmpk RAMBOWT JERR.hahahahahhaaha.seyes ney sesi mgutok ko.xsory la tp if ad org da cri pasl ngan aku jgn harp aku nk pk baek2 pasl die.aku xkn halg pn klu ad owg nk kutok ko.klu sblm neyy stkt jeling2 aku je aku stil bley kt xbaek klu ad owg cm kutok ko ove gle en.tp skng xsory la...aku la yg plg byk kutok kot.n mmg owg xske ko pon en.siap pgl ko unta.agagagagagagagaga.adoyaiii.xsian lgsg kat ko.tah nape dlm byk2 name dorg pgl ko unta en.aku rs msti sbb ko ske kat jamal.jamal dlm bhs arab en unta.agagagagagaga.kutok owg mmg bes en?byk wt dosa.heh.n aku xterase nk eja bitch gne * pon.o even terbalek2 kn ejaan die.mmg straight forward ko kna bitch ngan aku.eyyy.ko shud b proud watt...coz ko la owg pertama y aku pgl BITCH.

*****

today.lets take a detour.kite xckp pasl dat stupid croc.we talk about some b**** y mmg xsedar diri.pagi td.heyy pals.take note y aku gne bm.mknenye thp kemarahan petala ke tujuh.ok continue.pagi nie.mmbe aku bagi aku bc satu poem y nk diletakkn dlm majalah skola ney en.die tunjuk la name dak tu bitchy.ok.maken berminat aku nk bc en.die tulis dalam bi.cam nk bombastic gile la en.like i thot,die tulis pasl dak y die ske tu.sape lg klu bukn hatsuharu.ok fine.lantak die la en.nk tulis pasl sape pun.then smpai part aku.d gurl dat hatsuharu likes.ok fine lg.then...suddenly aku bace3...die kt 'dat b****.heh.aku da tatau nk ckp pe.bengap ke bahlul ke siot ke sial ke bengong ke mangkok ke keparat ke bodoh ke ape tah die tu.apahal nk pgl aku bitch skng??!!ape aku buat kat die skng?!ade aku wat bnde xsnonoh kat die?ade aku wat bnde bitchy kat die??ckp sket bengap!ade aku wat??eyy minah!usik ko pun aku xbuat ok!!y ko nk pgl aku bitch pahal??nk gado r skng??die y xtrime love ko tu nk salakan aku plak.aku bley buat pe klu die ske aku.aku bley buat pe klu even if aku da reject die pon de stil xnk pndang ko.xlayan ko.ko nk pgl bitch pon pgl la kat owg laen.klu kat die aku bley trime la en.sape ley trime kna reject en.esp ko en.tp phal ko nk pgl aku bitch skng??!ad aku kaco hidup ko??ade??cbe cakap sket pe aku buat??stakat aku dating ngan kaka kat lua klas ko dgn niat nk saketkan hati ko.tu je en.y ko nk pgl aku bitch pahal?!!aku x usik pon la haru y ko dok gile2kan tu!!aku xske kat die pon en.y ko nk ove2 pgl aku bitch pahal??!!eyy.seyes doe.klu skola tu bukan sab mmg da lme aku ajak mmbe aku wat dajal kt ko tau.stkt vandalism mja ko tulis bitch kat c2 besa2 ckup la en.tu kre adil la en.memandangkan bnde ney mmg da tersebar da pon wlupon berkemungkinan besa cikgu xkasi ltk dalm majalah skola.tp.andai kt dapat.mmg siap la ko.aku akn balas.xpadan ngan budak baru.xsedar diri.xsmpai staun kat cni da nk cri pasl.klu nk blah tu blah jela.xpaya nk wat hal kat cni.tgk la.klu ko lebey had ko jgn ingat aku nk diamkn je.

SUPER DUPER STUPID SILENT CROC

aku cam bru ingat xd bnde nk post arinie en.coz xdbnde nk dicakapkan.coz aku xckp pn ngn die.i mean no big story en.tp td!!!!just now!just a few minutes ago i received a msg which he sala anta.dat is just soooooooooooo laaaaaaaaaameeeeeeee.......................he alwiz does dat.i dunno purposely o accidently.i dont giv a damn.but this is wat he sae dat made me feel like wana punch him in his face!!!'U noe wht...i think she just blive everything tht her friend tel her..thts just like too naive...she should ask me coz i noe what i sae...' n ad bnde die mgarut dat i dont even giv a damn.huu~ sabau la hati........sabau..........memg la aku caye ape yg kwn aku ckp bong!even if dere's an issue of tokok tmbh in wat dey sae.it doesnt mean y bnde tu xblaku.u did sae like dat to her.it did happen.of course u noe wat u sae.but sumtimes we do forgot what we sae.even when frens told us stories bout others.not all r d truth.maybe some parts we forgot so we create words to describe d situation dat kinda d same like d original.yea.b4 dis mmg i alwiz ask u first.but isnt dat too naive?to just belive everything dat u sae.didnt u realise dat ur actions hv their consequences too?didnt u think bout it when u wana do some pranks?y u neva think of other people feelings everytime u want to do sumthing?y u alwiz make decision like d world is urs?y didnt u think dat ur prank will be soon be heard.by me.didnt u think i would be jealous?u know how i am.but u stil buat prangai like dat.r u realy dat stupid?r u realy dat batu hati who neva cares 4 other people's feelings?y is it so hard 4 u to understand me?here i am, b4 this monday, stil wif u, stil love u, stil care 4 u, stil wana make u hepy, stil many more, stil wana b wif u, even when u already sae dat u like 3 gurls when u wif me.....isnt that too NAIVE?isnt dat too STUPID?i am loyal to u afte what had happen b4.i am stil wif u eventho ma frenship wif ma besfren r ruined.i stil put up to ur behaviour even when i know afte d first gurl,u sae to another gurl dat u like her,miz her n some other things dat u sae to me too.i dont know where i get al that patience to put up wif u.to stil be loyal to u.even when dere's 3 other guys who had propose me to be their gurl.i sae i no in ma heart to 3 guys n u balas by saying yes in ur heart to 3 gurls??dont u think i'm stupid 4 stil being loyal to guy like u?dont u even feel lucky dat i'm loyal n stupid n naive n softhearted 4 u??i wont let u enter ma heart again.eva.da bis blaja ke blom u will neva have a special place in ma heart eva again.ure a SUPER DUPER STUPID SILENT CROC.budak bangang.im not going to forgive.not now.ma heart is stil evil.i'm not gonna forgive u jerk!loser!ure a jerk!n ure a loser!n I DONT WANT YOU!!!

super stupid silent croc!

he is truly a stupid silent croc!no doubt bout it.just now at skwl he asked me y was i behaving like this?wat makes me angry wif him?he didnt knw.wel.if he realy didnt knw then let me tell him.i only sae one sentence.i said 'dak y die suke tu xlyn die' n then he remembered.die kt 'oh yg tu!ala.yg tu men2 je.xkn tu pn nk mara?' i was like xcuse me??!men2??who is he kidding?die pk pe owg akn pk if die ckp cmtu?wat prangai cmtu?is he realy dat bong?did he realy thought dat i wouldnt find out?he told tenten for heaven's sake!she's ma fwen!n y did he hv to make such story if he realy wanna men2??xd cite len ke nk bwat?!stupid silent croc!then afte i said like dat die bley kt 'ape salanye?'haaa??ape salanye kepale hotak die!mmg la sala 'pandai'!mmg bgus tol.mmg 'btuah' sgt2 sape y menjalinkan hubungan dgn die.n i wanna announce dat starting yesterday he is no more anyone for me!eventho according to yaya d percentage of ma heart that hates him is only around 20-30%.i dont care!its more than enough.he lied to me.i messed up d second chance dat i gv him.n he dont understand me at all.afte all dat had happen.he stil didnt learn.sae i'm cruel(karti sae).sae u kesian at him(hinata sae).sae anything(dono who sae).i dont give a damn anymo.now i just have to be strong to get him out of ma heart.

stupid silent croc!

SSC.dats d new panggilan 4 him.it stands for stupid silent croc.yeap.he's stupid.n he's a silent croc.he cheated on me.bugger.stupid crocodile.the biggest lyer i hv eva met.he's d one dat i syg d most.but he's d one who lie to me d most.stupidos crocodilos buggos.ma mission starts today.mission to ignore him.i'l 4get bout him.he's not worth it.penipu besau.i hate lyers.he knows bout it but he stil do it.mmg pndai tol.eventho he messed up before i gv d second chance but still.he lied to me.n even cheated on me.that bugger.i hate bugs.n i hate lyers.mmg btol pon y pntai da musnahkan chenta kite.awk mmg tau2 je.bgus la.ure a big croc so its easy for u to find ma replacement en.cume i need strengh.i need all the strengh dat i can get to accomplish this mission.

kebahagiaan~

sbenarnye aku da ok sejak smlm.sejak afte i blog.rite afte dat im ok already.tp bia la.sj nk tulis arinie.xdpe nk dirisaukan.i believe in him.n he believes in me.dats all dat matters.cume aku xske la owg ckp2 ney en.esp when they r making it up.n esp if its her.im starting to not like her back.now dat she makes things up bout him.i realy dont like it.same la mcm hinata punye situation.she's jealous when she sees me wif yaya.its just d same wif me.of course im jealous when i see him wif bee.like hinata.she dont know y only wif me she feels jealous.me too.i dont know y only wif bee i felt d jealousy.maybe bcoz dey r 'kenen'ing him wif her.n again like ma situation.maybe hinata's jealous bcoz dem in d class alwiz 'kenen'ing me wif yaya.tp.eventho i do feel jealous but i dont hv d right to say to him dat he hv to stay away from bee just bcoz i feel jealous.its not how d way things go.its just not right.she's his friend.she's ma friend too.even if i do feel jealous thn i just hv to live wif it.jealousy will only lead to break-ups.u can feel jealous but not until it eats u inside.even jealousy has its limit.i believe in him.n dats all dat matters.relationship is a two-way thingy.we hv to trust each other to make it happen.n we hv to understand each other.we may not be able to realy understand our partner but we hv to try n learn each other.i understand he's mesra wif everyone.n if dey do fall for him then its their problem.i believe in him.eventho sometimes im worried bout him but if he realy does care for me like he sae n he wants to kekal wif me,then he wont mess up this second chance dat i gv him.wat if he do mess up?then its ove la.even ma patience hv its limit rite?

aching.hpe its nt true

ma heart is aching rite now.its painful.very2 painful.y isnt there any way to take the painful out rite away when u already feel it?y painful isnt a thing that can be removed?like clothes o rings?then ma heart wont be so damaged like this.i dont wnt to go through this again.once is enough.im through with it.i dont want to lose ma friends.y emotion is such a complicated thing?y ma heart is soo stubborn?y do i stil have to be hurted?i y ma actions hurted others?i know.jealousy comes just like dat.we cant help feeling it.i know she didnt meant harm.she just cant help it.but y only with me??i dont y i feel guilty.i feel guilty for hurting her.eventho i dont think i do anything wrong.really.u can feel jealous just like dat.initially i dont care even if she's jealous.but when dat day she cried in front of me, i just cant take it.im stating to feel guilty.even SFF had a talk wif yaya.when one-ny told me just now,i felt kinda betrayed by yaya.so he wants to stay away is it?fine.if its make everyone hepy n drown al this rumours dat goes on between me n him then fine.so be it.i just cant take it.ma heart just hurts so much.even i feel jealous rite now.i cant take it.hearing other people talking bout kay n bee can just make ma heart ache just like dat.just when i hang out at other clas,sumone told me dat she heard rumours bout kay n bee.she said dat d people in d class said that kay likes bee n bee like kay.i realy felt hurt that time.i felt just like i wana shout dats not true!i trust him when he said d words.n i want to believe dat he only meant dat to me n no one else.i really want to believe dat.i realy wnt to trust him.n i realy hope dat he kept his promise.i cant stand being like this.i hv to mke it clear.i cant spend d day wondering bout it.its eating me inside.but tenten sae just dat he does kinda close to bee.but he's like dat to everyone.at first tenten didnt want to tell me bout this.n im sure she add bout the others part just to mke me feel comfortable.but rite now im feeling very uneasy.

pandan + deoderant = hehehe

ayayayayayaya!dat day he came to ma house!kecuakan melande oww!aku ingat die men2 ble die kt die ad kat surau blkg umah aku.huhu.gle cuak thp cibai.tgn aku da menggeletar kot aritue.cuak punye pasal.tp aku tgk2 dri tingkp blik aku xdpn keta y die ckp tu.die ty aku bley x die dtg umah aku?aku cuak ow.tatau nk wtpe.mcm nk kna wt decision nk kua ngan die ke x.gle cuak!!wawawawawawawa.aku pk alang2 die da ad kt cni pe salanye jmpe en.tp.....mk ayh aku ad!woo!gle cuak!aku da kt nk jmpe tp xpk lg pasl mk abh oww.then aku tgk mk abh cm siap2 en.da la aku da siap tuka pkai sua pjg.pkai topi nk cover hair sume en.aku ty r mk nk g ne.skali mk kt nk blik kg.aku ty ble.da nk g da.aku pndg je dorg.aku ckp dlm pale ble la mk abh nk kua ney.hahaha.bong doe.gle cuak time tu.seyes tgn aku mgeletar!tp aku wat cm bese je r en.aku da pk da nk kt g umah tenten.huhu.skali die kt die otw.aku cuak!on d same time mk nk kua da.waaaaaaaaaaaa!bley naek pengsan aku coz cuak sgt!huhuhu.then mk abh da kua.aku pun kua r tgg die.aku siap bwk buku bukit kepong lg.knon nk bc time tgg die dtg.tp betape xsng dudoknye aku..................then i saw him.hehe.time tu aku tgh bersila dalam pagar.mk da kunci pagar.aku bia jela.die dok kt kusi kt lua pagar tu.muke die nmpk cm owg saket.aku ty la xcukup tido ke.die kt telebey tido.time bdue cmtu bley plak borak cm bese.gne kt awk.haha.teingt lak tenten kt die xbese dgr.klu nk ikutkn aku pun xbese berkite awk ngan owg.ngan sakura 'saya awk'.ngan fam 'kite plus pnggiln masing2' ngan die je 'kite awk'.awl2 tu mmg la xbese tp skng da bese lak.die ley plak men cabut2 daun umah aku.aku tgk je.las2 aku pon dok teikut die cabut2 daun.cian daun pandan kt pgar tu.jd mngse aku.hehehe.knonnye die nk wat tnde die dtg umh aku.die susun daun keliling selipar yg lg besa dri kaki die tu.haha.taley blah.ktorg borak cm bese je.xdla kekok sgt.cume agak terganggu ble rmbut aku nk tekelua.ad owg jual eskem lalu au!tp die bkn nk thn oww!die suh aku thn.da die dok kt lua die la thn!huhuhu.eskeeeemmm.......!ble die da blik 2 aku tuka la blik sua en.ngan topi da bkak sume.sekali!titibe abh blik blik!Ya Rabbi!seyes aku bsyukur sgt die da blik.timing mk die kol mmg tepat ah!abh blik nk mik fon tetinggl.adoyaiii........lemah semangat aku dibuatnye klu cmtu tiap2 ari.buatnye tekantoi?!huhuhuhu.aku xnk byg pon oww.menakutkan.scary gileee!hahaha.tp lps jmp tu aku dok tesenyum memnjg je.xhabih2 cm xckup bibir jew.agagagagagagagaga.sebenanye aku agak risau nk pkai cmtu.tkut nmpk boyish en coz aku rs cm boyish je.tamau r die pk cmtu en.so dat n8 aku ty r die td aku nmpk boyish ke?die kt x la xlgsg.huu~ nsib...hahaha.then die kt aku nmpk cute td.adoyaiii.........taley doe aku dgr bnde2 cmtu.malu aku.mmg nk wat aku melting r tu en.nsib die x ckp time jmp aku.klu x mmg tatau la ne nk sorok mke aku ney.time bc msg tu pon aku da dilande ke'shy'an.da tutop mke da.adoii.ble die blik tu ad bincg bnde y mmg xthn gle oww.aku tatau r.nk rs kebahagiaan ke bdiri ats bumi.face d realiti.aku mmg xske bnde2 ceni jd oww.perbincangan hati ke hati ney ley wat aku lemah oww.aku takut aku 'ter'romantically involve.xmo oww.tamauuuuu!klu aku da romantically involve kang mmg aku bgntung pd die.cm dolu-dolu.tamau3........ma heart wil stick to him.yada.i dont want.die ty aku au rmbt aku pjg en.aku kt bia la jd misteri.thn titibe die kt da kawen nty die dpt tgk gk.aiyy.mmg gatai mmbe aku sowg neyy.aku kt if ktorg kawen en.die kt yela if ktowg bekekalan.aku ty r die die nk kekal ngan aku ke?die bls sp lg die bley cri lbey baek dri aku?aiyyyyyyayayayayayaaaaa...............!aku
mmg taley ow kna ayt ceni!ayak!help meeeeeeeeeee!aku kt r wat if ble da bis blaja nty die jmp?o ble die if die jd pinda nex yer die jmp owg len?die kt die tamau owg ganu.aleyy.titibe msuk ganu lak die ney.xsmstinye owg ganu je kt sane tu.thn aku kt r if die jd pinda thn how ktowg nk kekal en?coz aku mmg gerenti aku taley thn ditinggalkn lme2 cmtu.mmg ley jd xbtol aku.tah2 nty lbey dri tenten ketidakbetolan aku tu.bhy tu.dala nex yer spm.die kt bknnye die dok sne slame2nye.lgpn kt c2 ley bwk fon.aiyyy.da tau tu.gle taley blah.tah.yg tu tgk la.tgk la nty how we end up.jgn dipikekn bnd y xpsti.yg pnting skng.n skng.pe y aku xske ialah ble bnde2 ceni jd.aku mmg nk sgt2 xnk romantically involve.sbb.......ble bnde2 ceni jd.bnde2 y ley wat feeling aku kt die jd up cket.bnde2 y ley wat aku melting.hati aku jd xstabil.aku akn jd xbtol cket.ble tgk die td dok ngan bee n mechan aku jd xsng hti.rs 'xenak' tu sng2 je singgah kat hati aku.xske owwww!klu x aku slmbe je.xdla rs ove cket cm td.hmm.seyes doe.gotta reset ma heart.taley bg die ovedose.nty parah.huisyy.xske oww parah2 ney.mnakutkn.

wonderzzz

i wonder how long this relationship could lasts.coz its like having a relationship in uncertainties.there's no bond which really ties me wif him.even when things r like that,but we're kinda pandai2 when it comes to other people.we know we hv someone in our heart and we tend to be loyal to each other altho we're not an item.its like we already know that you-belong-to-me-and-i-belong-to-you kind of feeling.i already say no to 3 guys when im 'wif' him.yea.becoz of him i cm hncurkan hrpn 3 guys.those 3 guys proposed me.to be their gurl.i said no.becoz of a guy who is not even ma boy.maybe some people cant understand.y i do it?hmm.i cant really tell y.just becoz he's in ma heart.just becoz.no other reason.i dont know bout him.whether he does the same as me.o if he thinks like i do.i know im loyal.coz im just that type.but he's different.but seriously i dont know how long this situation will lasts.im fine like this.but if and only if he realy wnts to be an item and totally damn serious bout it,i dont mind.but since i broke wif him,i dont allow maself to be so much romantically involve in this matter.heart matter i mean.coz i dont want he to hurt me deeply again.once is enough.i wont allow it to happen anymo.not wif him.