now

people come and go in our lives.

just like you said to me.

i always thought that we were meant for each other.

never once i thought that a day would come

where i would make a decision to get rid of you out of my life.

i was not meant for you.

and you were not meant for me.

i cherish the moments that we had together

but i have to move on.

there's a reason we have to say goodbyes.

although we said we knew each other so well

that we can read each other,

we never were.

i am never to stay.

i come and i eventually go.

so do you.

we start off well.

so lets end this well as well.

tekad

sblm ni sye telah buat satu tekad..iaitu untuk tidak on FB ari2 blaja..meaning on sats n suns jela on..n alhamdulillah stakat ni sye berjaya merealisasikan tekad sye ni..sejak naik cuti sye start..n skrg sye nk buat lg satu tekad..sye btekad ntuk melupakan die..bolehkah sye melakukannye?psoalan ini suda bmain dlm fikiran sye btahun2 lamenye ye rakan2..kerna nmpknye sye ni tidak serik2 dipermainkan,diperkotak-katikkan,dikecewakan,disakethatikan..ad satu name ntuk golongan yg suke disakiti hatinye ni tapi sye lupe apakah istilah nye..bole kah anda mbntu sye?kpd sape2 yg mbaca..sye nk tau istilah ntuk golongan sebegini..ye sye tahu sye budu..sye mberi alasan bahwa sye ini loyal~ adakah excuse ini boleh digunapakai??

namun begitu,sblm die fly sye telah mbuat stu tekad juge..sye kate pada diri sye..sye akan bg diri sye chance ntuk indulge dlm prsn ini sehingga die fly..n then sye akn buat keputusan finale..pada hari ptame die sudah tidak ada di malaysia,sye tewas dgn prsn n berendam dgn tasik buatan sendri..n sye juga tidak dpt melelapkn mte pd mlm tersebut..biarlah hari tu hari terakhir air mate sye tumpah ntuk die,kate sye..jadi sye perlu menangis sepuas-puasnye agar tidak ada lg air mate ntuk die..keesokkan harinye sye sprti biase..sehingga lah die meng'cntct' sye pd hari kamis..wlupon number x dikenali namun sye tahu itu die..n sye kegembiraan..n die kol esoknye..pd jumaat ptg..n last pd jumaat mlm..ari yg sme..ketika itu, sye sedang mghadiri kem pemntapan rohani..n fasilitator sye ad la berbicara mgenai hati..n hati sye tdetik ntuk berubah..n sye teringat kembali tekad sye sblm die fly tu..

tekad sye skng,sye nk lupakan die..mampukah sye melakukannye?insyaAllah..sye sedar sye telah byk kali tewas dlm ptarungan prsn ini..namun skrg peluang terbuka luas n sye perlu merebutnye..doakanlah agar sye berjaya..^_^

let be..

pls..let all the tears for him fall today and begone..

let the silence of the night be my companion..

let this aching feeling stay here today n today only..

let it not be there tomorrow when the sun wakes up again..

let this memory lingers for awhile n go when the time comes..

let my heart be strong n keep going on..

let my prayers be heard..

let me not feel false hope..

let me go of him..

let him be the him that he prays to be..

pls..pls..pls..

let these all pls be true..

let me smile brightly with no underlying feelings..

pls..

fly~

today 5th of october, 9:43 am...

today is the only the day that i do not appreciate pn rita's story of her family..i do not want to hear them..why cant today,just today she skipped all her stories about her family?i want the class to end fast!9:50 am he was suppose to enter the plane already!i cant concentrate in class..i couldnt..i ran as fast as i could as soon as the class ended..nearing 9:44 am,i called him..the first time he didnt pick up..the second..luckily..

me:'da pass security sume?'

him:'da..skng kat lounge(kot)..tgl nk msk plane je..'

me:'o ey?sape lg anta?'

him:' mak dgn nenek..dorg ikut skali..nty kte smpai kt sne kul 3 pg malaysia'

me:'o ye?ad tuka plane kat ne2 x?'

him:'ad..kat dubai..'

me:'msk kul bpe?'

him:'9.50..'

me:'skng da kul bpe?'

him:'emm..da 9.49..'

me:'ha??9.49 da??'

him:'aah..ohh pintu die da bkak'

me:'da bkak?'

him:'aah..k la nk g da ni'

me:'emm..'

him:'emm..'

me:'ok'

him:'ok babai..'

me:'emm..'

(sob3)..