sucks like heel

ok.im through d sad part.not realy but....ok.let me get this straight.i am seriously not a good person.outside o inside.ok.maybe i hv good n bad sides.but personally i dont think im a good person,overall.but as bad as i am,as flirty as i cn get,as close to a guy as i cn get, i do hv my boundaries ok...maybe some people tend to misunderstand me coz they dont know me enaf.but i do feel sick wif maself coz letting them feel dat way.at certain points i can know when im doing it.i mean when i get overboard.according to zati i tend to get manje without me knowing it.but there r certain times when i DO know it.n i feel terribly sick bout it.coz i know im faking it.n it is disgusting.pure filthy.it just hapenned recently u c.so im stil not over this.n to make things worst people who just dont seem to understand tend to get overboard as well.which sucks like hell.seriously.i am soooo being creep out by this.i dont think i cn act normal without getting bum.damn it.