fear o no fear?

"I swear by the time, Most surely man is in loss, Except those who believe and do good, and enjoin on each other truth, and enjoin on each other patience.

103:1-3 "

what is fear? i guess when u ask someone what is fear, he probably tells u what his fears are. but i wonder does his fear includes what he's suppose to be afraid of. and i wonder if my fear include it as well. we all may say that yes we do fear God. who doesn't right? minus those atheists. but for us, when we say we fear Him, what do we really feel. i bet u don't even feel a tiny bit of fear when saying that. u're just a hypocrite. like me. cause u don't know what fear means. u don't feel the fear cause of u're ego and arrogance. just face the truth. u're not there yet. u might think its enough but truth is, its never enough.

He gave u everything that u have now but what do u give in return. u may scorn n said, ' hey, i did my prayers ya know.' but how do u know that He accepts your prayers. are they sincere enough to be accepted. are u sure that who solely think of Him and only Him when u pray? or maybe, 'aa i'm hungry...maybe i should eat chicken rice after this' or maybe 'i think i should call him and ask if he wants to go out tomorrow' or maybe 'i have to pray fast, the drama will be aired in seconds!' in a split second your mind is wandering. so how can He accepts foolish prayers like that? how can u say that u give something back in return too when everything that u do for him is half-heartedly?

He gave u your eyes for u to see this magnificent world that He created but all u see is pop stars and your boyfriends/girlfriends. He gave u your mouth to zikir to Him but u use it to say love words to your 'loved ones'. there are a lot of things that He gave u but u never give back in return. remember that those luxuries that He gave are only for a moment. if He is to take them back, what can u do? beg for forgiveness now that your ego is on its knees? what is done can never be undone. read and heed. for u and for me.

wallahu ta'ala 'alam.