aching.hpe its nt true

ma heart is aching rite now.its painful.very2 painful.y isnt there any way to take the painful out rite away when u already feel it?y painful isnt a thing that can be removed?like clothes o rings?then ma heart wont be so damaged like this.i dont wnt to go through this again.once is enough.im through with it.i dont want to lose ma friends.y emotion is such a complicated thing?y ma heart is soo stubborn?y do i stil have to be hurted?i y ma actions hurted others?i know.jealousy comes just like dat.we cant help feeling it.i know she didnt meant harm.she just cant help it.but y only with me??i dont y i feel guilty.i feel guilty for hurting her.eventho i dont think i do anything wrong.really.u can feel jealous just like dat.initially i dont care even if she's jealous.but when dat day she cried in front of me, i just cant take it.im stating to feel guilty.even SFF had a talk wif yaya.when one-ny told me just now,i felt kinda betrayed by yaya.so he wants to stay away is it?fine.if its make everyone hepy n drown al this rumours dat goes on between me n him then fine.so be it.i just cant take it.ma heart just hurts so much.even i feel jealous rite now.i cant take it.hearing other people talking bout kay n bee can just make ma heart ache just like dat.just when i hang out at other clas,sumone told me dat she heard rumours bout kay n bee.she said dat d people in d class said that kay likes bee n bee like kay.i realy felt hurt that time.i felt just like i wana shout dats not true!i trust him when he said d words.n i want to believe dat he only meant dat to me n no one else.i really want to believe dat.i realy wnt to trust him.n i realy hope dat he kept his promise.i cant stand being like this.i hv to mke it clear.i cant spend d day wondering bout it.its eating me inside.but tenten sae just dat he does kinda close to bee.but he's like dat to everyone.at first tenten didnt want to tell me bout this.n im sure she add bout the others part just to mke me feel comfortable.but rite now im feeling very uneasy.